Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal Thu, 21 Aug 2008 20:37:55 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/187943/1213247596.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/187943 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1242301 I find myself not needing to write my thoughts and feelings down in this journal as often as I used to. I feel like I am forgetting my dad. It's like he is still here because sometimes it doesnt register in my head that indeed my dad is gone. Like it really doesn't hit me because I never rea... Tue, 12 Aug 2008 18:56:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1222288 Everything has gotten alot easier to manage the pain dealing with my dad. It still does not feel real because it was not uncommon for us to go this long without speaking. my sis and bro brought my dads truck to our uncles to sit because before that it was just sitting in the street @ my moms. i... Fri, 01 Aug 2008 10:34:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1201764 Yesterday we went to the cemetary to see if my dads footstone was delivered yet and it was. The deer looks a lil funky but when we see or even talk about anything related to a deer we think of our dad. He wasnt a deer hunter but the last weekend/day he was alive he was deer hunting with my dad. Ever... Mon, 21 Jul 2008 12:09:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1185345 I BOUGHT MY CAR! my very first car and I am very excited!!! I got a white pontiac g6 coupe and its fabulous!!! tomorrow(monday) i do have to bring it into the shop though because they have to re paint it because there are chips on the front and then a little scratch on the back. Sun, 13 Jul 2008 09:53:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1170603 I havent been on in a while ... just trying to enjoy my life and get on with it. My sisters grad party was june 28th and that was interesting. My uncle told me and my sister the reason why he didnt want us up there was because out of "respect" for my dad he didnt want my mom and jerry on t... Sun, 06 Jul 2008 13:29:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1147584 Is it my time to just die? It feels like I am ready to go see my dad .... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 19:36:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1147547 When my dad died in NOV 2007 I was very forward with telling my mom I wanted him buried. Now with all of this going on I am so mad. My dad was cremated and we buried his ashes in the ground in a tackle box in the cemetary. I am so pissed off because I should of kept his ashes because what the hell h... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 19:20:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1138466 Well yesterday we all went to order my dads footstone! We got ...  JOHN M. URBANNOV 25 1960NOV 6 2007 WE LOVE AND MISS YOU DAD on the left hand side of the footstone will be 2 trees with a deer. my dad was deer hunting the last day he was alive, that was his first time hunti... Sat, 21 Jun 2008 20:53:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1133971 TOMORROW WE ARE GOING TO ORDER MY DADS FOOTSTONE! I will keep you all updated Thu, 19 Jun 2008 19:03:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1124809 It is fathers day and I got my tattoo. It hurt really bad. It is very surreal to see it tattooed on my wrist. Dad you would be so utterly shocked to know that I have dad tattooed on me. You would be SHOCKED! My fam didnt really say much and it was kind of depressing but w.e I did it for me and I did... Sun, 15 Jun 2008 23:18:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1114517 Ok so here is the situation. My dad always went to this cabin up north and my uncle and aunt CLAIM they own it. My dad got a huge chunk of change from when him and my mom got divorced and we cant find it. It was over 50k! We cant find it. We think my dad bought that cabin and that he just had my unc... Wed, 11 Jun 2008 08:49:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1105797 Yesterday when we were taking pictures of my sister and her friend together one of the pictures came up on my moms digital camera with one of those orbs thing you always see on montel when silvia brown is on. know what i am talking about? yeah that ord was RIGHT by my sister by her head and shoulder... Sat, 07 Jun 2008 09:46:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1104024 Today my sister graduates HS and we are going to her ceremony. I want to get her a grad card and give it to her. She is most likely having a bad day since my dad is gone and wont be there to see her graduate  but the fact is this ... my mom didnt get along with my mom and hated my step dad so t... Fri, 06 Jun 2008 12:27:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1101523 Couple things - my sis graduates HS tomorrow CONGRATS! I really want fathers day to come and then again I dont. I want it to come because I want to get my tattoo. No one in my family knows I am getting it done. This is the longest I have kept something from my family. They are going to be SHOCK... Thu, 05 Jun 2008 11:29:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1100009 Well we are all still praying that dan wakes up from his coma and pulls through. we think that since he broke his leg and had to have surgery on it maybe that caused a blood clot that shot up to his heart that caused the massive heart attack. he has brain activity but only in his brain stem. no one ... Wed, 04 Jun 2008 19:35:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1091958 Well its set - my tattoo appointment is fathers day (june 15) @ 1pm. I am going to just get the word dad across my wrist and I am thrilled to go get it done. the shop owner is coming in on his day off and also that day the shop isnt even open so he is coming in just for me. I am SO happy that he is ... Sun, 01 Jun 2008 11:18:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1088685 Today we still havent left to make my appointment to tattoo on fathers day but i am going to ask my bf if after rush hour if we can go. all i am getting is the word dad on my wrist and t hen some design/line thing under it. if at a later time i want to add something then i will. today i had a meltdo... Fri, 30 May 2008 16:37:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1083557 Friday I go into the tattoo shop to make an appointment for fathers day! the owner of the shop told me that his dad lived in another state so that he(the owner) would come in on fathers day to give me my tattoo! i am so appreciative of that. Wed, 28 May 2008 13:13:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1083552  ITS NOT MY TIME - 3doors downLooking back at the beginning of thisAnd how life wasJust you and me and love and all of our friendsLiving life like an oceanNow the currents slowly pulling me downIt's getting harder to breathIt won't be too long and I'll be going underCan you save me ... Wed, 28 May 2008 13:11:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/187943/journal/1078441 Today is memorial day and I am numb. I feel like I should force the pain out and grieve but the tears arent coming. I am going to visit my dad at the cemetary today with my bf and my sis and my brother. Its still hard to go there and knowing that my dads ashes are just right below us. I still rememb... Mon, 26 May 2008 09:47:02 +0100