Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 18:49:29 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/186464/1216249126.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/186464 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1393607 I have been running a marathon since February 10th of this year. As if that isn't hard enough, I started running it after you took a hammer to both of my knees and smashed my kneecaps. So, I run but I have a terrible limp which is to say that this will not be my best run but it will be the most ... Thu, 20 Nov 2008 14:09:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1385379 It's been five months since I sold my car and downgraded to public transit. It's been a good choice, so far, save for the somewhat strange people I sit next to sometimes. But, they usually bring color and new fragrance (not pleasant) to my world and I usually leave the bus smiling. There was... Fri, 14 Nov 2008 15:48:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1363458 my mac is about to die so this'll be fast. we just got back from the new marriage therapist. she was good, i think. i told her that i don't take bs from therapists...that I would only pain someone who was directive and talked straight. she proved to have that kind of approach. she quickly un... Thu, 30 Oct 2008 00:55:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1361311 I was away in Indy for a few days (as in Indianapolis) on business. The trip was good and gave me some time to reflect and read. I started reading a book called, "The Power of Story"...it'd take a long post to get into what the book is really about,  but I'll try in one senten... Tue, 28 Oct 2008 14:24:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1354265 I'm flying all day today from PDX to Philly then to Indianapolis...what a route. This is my first trip away since the affair was "discovered." I feel okay about it; I'm not worried at all. I do hate traveling, though. I'll likely sit next to some strange person who either smell... Thu, 23 Oct 2008 10:46:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1353386 It's true...I'm writing personalized notes to inatimate objects. Today's note...a note to my scale. It's my way of processing things...I'm sure there's anger involved but who cares? Dear Digital Scale-  Last week when I stepped on you, I was pleased...I felt like we... Wed, 22 Oct 2008 18:01:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1352291 I tried writing in you today, but you refused to update yourself so I cursed at you. I understand if you're mad...I've been absent from your life and nothing pisses journals off more than not being used. So, old friend, I'm here to use you today but I'm warning you...if you don't... Wed, 22 Oct 2008 00:07:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1311910 We've not spoken of the affair in the past few weeks; not since we buried it in the sand at the beach on our anniversary. We've started talking about normal things, you know, our finances, parenting, the future...normal life.  This past weekend marked one year since j last had sex with ... Wed, 24 Sep 2008 18:18:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1297710 Jenn and I celebrated our 14th anniversary this past weekend. We went to a great hotel in wine country, close to the Oregon coast. We stayed there just for the night, got up and went to the beach. While there, we talked about how we wanted to bury the past; not all of it, just parts that were dark. ... Mon, 15 Sep 2008 19:36:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1264625 Maybe it was just tough talk to make the announcement that I was leaving DS? Maybe it's what I needed for a few weeks...whatever the case, I need DS now. I'm down and out; feeling like crap.  Things have been okay for the past few weeks, not great, but okay. Then, last night, I had this... Mon, 25 Aug 2008 23:43:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1247711 I'll post my writings in my journal from time to time. This was written yesterday. And no, I'm not back "on" ds...just using my journal...thank you.   Ice WalkingHe was walking on the iceWhen he heard a crack and felt it shakeHe began to tremble…And he trembled as ... Fri, 15 Aug 2008 19:19:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1238834 10 - Infidel has left the building. Who will make me laugh?9- I'm tired of wondering whether or not I have messages in my inbox.8- That foreign scammer keeps sending me messages with their yahoo address.7- The in-fighting, i.e, "can you believe what the cheaters said in the out of the fog g... Sun, 10 Aug 2008 22:51:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1235830 I knew I would come onto ds tonight and it would be riddled with posts about John Edwards. I knew, because I reacted strongly to a statement he made in which he said, "i never told her i loved her." See, J told me the same thing...that she never told the OM that she loved him. It'... Sat, 09 Aug 2008 02:36:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1230006 It's Jenn's birthday today. She came by my office and we headed out for lunch at a really swanky place on Nob Hill. We had great conversation but Jenn looked sad. She said she thought I wouldn't celebrate her birthday because she had hurt me so badly. I reassured her, told her that I lov... Tue, 05 Aug 2008 22:54:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1226500 My friend Don just finished a 3,300 mile trip on his bike across the country. I was supposed to go, but couldn't figure out how to leave my family for 66 days....perhaps when the kids are grown. In any case, Don and I went for a 52 mile ride last Friday above the Columbia Gorge (in Oregon). It w... Mon, 04 Aug 2008 01:05:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1223488 Sat, 02 Aug 2008 00:25:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1213538 Sun, 27 Jul 2008 19:18:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1204017 me: let me make this incredibly clear. don't even wave at jenn. no second glances, nothing. her: who is this and who are you talking about? me: a message for will her: well eff of then me: is this willy? her: no, this isn't. he is busy right now so if this is another... Tue, 22 Jul 2008 13:53:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1203947 a follow up to my last entry....the text message I sent the bastard read: "let me make this incredibly clear. don't even wave at jenn. no second glances, nothing!" he'll text me back....i hope he threatens me. i'm still waiting for a good reason to send his wife's atto... Tue, 22 Jul 2008 13:11:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/186464/journal/1199284 I asked J this morning if she had seen the OM around town recently. I ask every once in a while when I sense something; I can't explain that, just that I get a feeling. She told me that she saw the OM the evening before. He was ahead of her in his car and he waved at her. I asked her  how s... Sun, 20 Jul 2008 02:31:26 +0100