Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal Thu, 21 Aug 2008 03:30:43 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/182852/1218555955.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/182852 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1253827 It's unbelievable to me that I feel this good and it has NOTHING to do with outside circumstances.  It has to do with me actually loving myself.  Something that I was certain was absolutely impossible.  Now it is a reality.   I'm going to a "purse party" on... Tue, 19 Aug 2008 13:56:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1252092 How bizarre the Universe is.  Only a few weeks ago, I was lamenting and worrying about not seeing my son for at least a year.  Now, he's living with me.  You never know.  He's doing really well.  He's back with his girlfriend and I couldn't be happier.  ... Mon, 18 Aug 2008 14:44:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1245370 Well, my son is home.  It was so good to see him and see that he really doesn't have any regrets about the whole thing.  Which was a relief to me.   I'm so exhausted.  I've been up till midnight for 4 nights in a row.  I think I might be getting another migr... Thu, 14 Aug 2008 13:03:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1243855 I'm feeling really good.  I've been working SO HARD on this whole "love my body" thing.  And it is paying off big time.  I've been doing "mirror work" and just looking at my body without judgement.  I didn't think it was possible, but it is.... Wed, 13 Aug 2008 16:06:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1241598 I found this picture and just had to have it for my Avatar.  I think its SO beautiful.  I just want to stare at it and memorize it.  I even printed out a color copy and am going to hang it up by my bed to remind me that I can be beautiful - JUST AS I AM.  It's crazy... Tue, 12 Aug 2008 11:59:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1240289 Having weird thoughts.   Trying to work on the idea of my being something other than a mother.  So, ok.  I'm a mom.  But my son is 23 and doesn't need mothering.  And he swears that he's never going to have kids.  So my plan of going from mother to gran... Mon, 11 Aug 2008 17:38:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1233165 SCREAM!!!! I'm so sick of this fucking job.  No, I'm sick of this fucking CEO who likes to yell all the time.  I applied for 4 jobs in the last 24 hours.  I'm done trying to make it work here.  I'm going to hate giving up the 30% discount at the store, but oh... Thu, 07 Aug 2008 17:57:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1227157 Well, I took my son to the airport on Friday.  It was very emotional.  Really hard for me and his girlfriend.   So, this morning, I got an email from him.  I don't know what to think.  He said that apparently he is a pussy and he'll probably only be staying for ... Mon, 04 Aug 2008 12:02:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1220729 Ok, I feel a little better today.  I couldn't stop crying yesterday.  I had to go sit in the bathroom at work and just cry until I was done.  I did some EMDR tapping to help calm me down and it worked.  All afternoon, I just kept thinking I needed to talk to my therapist.... Thu, 31 Jul 2008 13:53:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1219118 Had lunch with my son.  It was good.  I kept staring at him trying to memorize everything.  I'm not going to see him again until I pick him up to take him to the airport on Friday.  Now I can't stop crying.  He gave me a box of stuff to store at my house.  He... Wed, 30 Jul 2008 16:38:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1218602 Well, I wrote my son a letter to read in a couple of months.  I ripped out a page from my Sudoku book and put it in there, too.  Gah!  I did not want to write that letter.  It made it so real that he's leaving in about 52 hours.  Not that I'm counting down. ... Wed, 30 Jul 2008 11:02:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1217028 My son leaves in 3 days.   He and his girlfriend were up to my house on Saturday and got into a heated argument.  Its such a long story and such a bizarre situation.  They still love each other, but have agreed to end their relationship.  She is feeling very unloved and disc... Tue, 29 Jul 2008 14:15:41 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1214713 Well, my son leaves for Europe on Friday.  Time goes by so stinking fast.   I spent most of the weekend with him.  We went for a drive in the mountains, up to Rocky Mountain National Park and up Fall River Road.  This is the drive we always used to do when we first moved her... Mon, 28 Jul 2008 11:45:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1201791 I have been having problems with the CEO where I work.  He likes to yell at people.  He hasn't yelled at me, but hearing him yell at other people triggers my PTSD symptoms.  I have to go into his office to get some binders to update reports for him.  I will only go in there w... Mon, 21 Jul 2008 12:19:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1196621 My son is going to Europe two weeks from today.  He's going to be gone for at least a year.  Probably more.  Yesterday, I went on a road trip with my him and his girlfriend.  I want to soak up all I can before he leaves.  Fill my tanks now.  I'm going to miss hi... Fri, 18 Jul 2008 13:58:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1192215 I just got an email letting me know that my Uncle Don died.  He had been very sick from cancer and chemo and was in his 80's.  He lived a good long life.  I'm glad his suffering is over.  He was such a nice man.  He and my aunt married late in life and they were so g... Wed, 16 Jul 2008 13:00:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1187723 Well, I took my first (and probably last) four wheel drive trail this weekend.  This trail was supposedly rated 2 on a scale of 1 to 10.  One of the reviews said that someone had driven it in regular passenger car.  No Way!  It should be rated at least a 4.  And I scraped bo... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 12:54:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1177234 I'm excited.  My eating disorder therapist is starting a new group for binge eaters that starts on Monday.  I really like groups.  I think the healing is speeded up in a group setting.   I've been on line looking for places to go in Colorado for a day trip with my so... Wed, 09 Jul 2008 12:35:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1174958 Well, I finally got the plates for my car last week.  Only six months late.  Anyway, they cost a lot less than I was expecting.  Yippie!  So I was thinking of taking a trip in the next week or so to somewhere in Colorado that I've never been before.  My son is leavi... Tue, 08 Jul 2008 12:55:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/182852/journal/1172969 Had a good three-day weekend.  I could see fireworks from my place, so I didn't have to go anywhere.  My son and daughter-in-law came up to my place on Saturday.  We had a good time.  I love cooking for people and hearing how much they appreciate it.  Got a little tipsy ... Mon, 07 Jul 2008 15:42:59 +0100