Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 18:42:45 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/181074/1213247290.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/181074 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1327676 MAYBE I CAN GET THIS DONE BEFORE I LEAVE.  GOT MORE ANTIBIOTICS TODAY, LONGER REGIMIN THIS GO AROUND. I PRAY TO GOD THIS WILL GO AWAY. IT HURTS BAD. Sat, 04 Oct 2008 22:28:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1321515 THAT'S MY KITTEN'S NEW NICKNAME...YOU CAN GUESS WHY I'M SURE!!!!!!!!   WHEN I GO TO THE LADY'S ROOM, SHE JOINS ME-JUST JUMPS IN HER LITTER BOX AND STARES AT ME. I THINK THIS IS A SURE SIGN THAT WE'VE PROPERLY BONDED!!!!!!!!!LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GEEZ, NO PRIVACY A... Tue, 30 Sep 2008 23:28:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1319687 HER AND I ARE ABOUT TO TAKE A NAP, ALTHO SHE DOESN'T KNOW THAT YET...HEH HEH. TODAY IS NOT PATIENT DAY....I'M TIRED OF THE BITING AND SCRATCHING.  I'M IRRITATED. SHE'S GOING TO HER ROOM, AND I'M HEADED TO MINE.    Mon, 29 Sep 2008 21:26:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1319097 My mama was a well mannered, kind, and loving woman. A friend to many, her door and her heart were always open-the coffee ready along with her listening ear and caring heart. If someone needed a safe place to stay for a time, her arms welcomed the person/s to "Come on in". Mama's ... Mon, 29 Sep 2008 15:02:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1307140 That's how long i have been this way- trusting, vulnerable, gullible, loving, and stupid. Every single fucking relationship was a HUGE lie and a joke on me, every one. How fucking pathetic is that? Who's the most pathetic party? Me or the fuckers who used and abused me? I guess the answer is... Sun, 21 Sep 2008 20:32:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1307120 Today i feel like i am just a shell of a person. i feel so damn sad and as if i am damaged and empty. Feels like i have nothing at all to offer her today. Nothing. Sun, 21 Sep 2008 20:14:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1305767 Sat, 20 Sep 2008 21:30:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1304767 I am so thrilled! I adopted a female kitten today from our local shelter! She was the runt from her litter and is just a doll! She's brown/black with 4 white feet-all of which have 5 toes and a white chin and chest!  We have done well bonding and right now she is sleeping on my chest! I fee... Sat, 20 Sep 2008 01:10:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1304174 There have been several rapes here lately. One young lady was just a block from where i live. I am trying really hard to not feel scared. i know i need to be vigilant though. Fri, 19 Sep 2008 16:39:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1299277 to live, to love, to laugh, to cry...have someone's arms wrapped around me, i want to lay my head on a love's shoulder, to listen to me, i want to listen intently to his words pouring out of his heart and soul...i want to run through a field of lovely flowers with my arms stretched up toward... Tue, 16 Sep 2008 18:27:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1288423 Oh GOODIE!!! one good thing though-i get to be sedated with Versed and Fentanyl- YEAH!!!! Tue, 09 Sep 2008 18:24:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1288316                  STOP SCREAMING AT ME. GET OUT OF MY HEAD, PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE.IF I COULD PULL ALL MY HAIR OUT, MAYBE I COULD GET YOU OUT OF  ME. STOP POSSESSING ME. GODDAMNIT I SAID SHUT ... Tue, 09 Sep 2008 16:57:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1288283 I'D LOVE TO HAVE ECT THERAPY...MAYBE THAT WOULD ERASE SOME OF THIS SHIT, REMOVE THE MEMORIES FROM MY BRAIN. THERE IS SOMETHING SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME. EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME, STARTING WITH CHILDHOOD, IS ALL CRASHING DOWN ON MY MIND, MY CONSCIOUSNESS AND IT IS TORTURE FOR ME. ... Tue, 09 Sep 2008 16:34:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1286442 yeah, this is doable.  i like it. i could live the rest of my life like this- NO PROBLEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! makes all the shit in my head calm some. not as angry or obsessive.  Mon, 08 Sep 2008 14:30:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/181074/journal/1286351 FEELING SO MUCH. I LIKE BEING NUMB.THIS IS GOOD-STICK WITH THIS. IT'S HELPFUL. Mon, 08 Sep 2008 13:39:18 +0100