Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal Sun, 12 Oct 2008 19:51:01 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/180897/1222990082.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/180897 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1336092 wow I've been slacking. No journal in a couple of days.  EEK!  So I'm just at home today getting some stuff done.  I missed my counseling appointment this morning but they are going to try to reschedule it for me so that's cool.  I had a phone interview at Regis Corpo... Fri, 10 Oct 2008 15:00:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1331215 It's an okay day today.  Pretty rainy and dreary here but that's the norm for this time of year...no wonder I hate fall!! Yesterday was good.  Really good.  I rested most of the day and went and got Tim his birthday gift and made dinner reservations.  I took him to this r... Tue, 07 Oct 2008 11:39:13 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1329794 Wow so what a weekend.  I have been with Tim all weekend and things have been so good.  Really just so good.  The drinking hasn't been an issue, no arguing, just real appreciation for one another.  I know it may be because it's fresh right now but I'll take it.  ... Mon, 06 Oct 2008 13:32:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1325956 what the hell am I doing and why do I do what I do...seriously.  I am just so confused and pissed off at myself I don't know what else to think really.  Yesterday I had written a journal and summed up what had gone on for a portion of my day.  Well after I wrote that I went on fac... Fri, 03 Oct 2008 15:34:40 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1324641 I'm not in a very good mood right now. Sort of pissed off at myself actually.  I didn't sleep well at all last night but I guess the good news is that I'm not pregnant!! But part of the reason for not sleeping was the terrible cramps.  So then this a.m. my aunt called and wante... Thu, 02 Oct 2008 18:59:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1323238 I just want to tell her I'm sorry your daughter is a fuck up and you just have to learn to deal with it.  Because the way she treats me, that's how I feel.  I haven't even spoken to her today at all and I get home tonight and I walk in the kitchen to my stepdad and mom and say ... Thu, 02 Oct 2008 00:19:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1321469 I wonder why I do the things I do sometimes.  I really do.  So today I quit my job.  I couldn't take it anymore and I  knew I was failing them anyways.  I have a few thoughts of what I can do now and know I can find a job fairly soon I hope at least.  I felt good at... Tue, 30 Sep 2008 22:54:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1320589 Today is not a good day either.  Woke up today  knowing I wasn't going to be able to make it to work.  I decided I  need to find another job.  Something to keep my head up and keep me going and somewhat busy but also something that I like.  I can't take this fee... Tue, 30 Sep 2008 13:12:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1319758 Bad day...what a really really bad day. I'm so upset.  I didn't work today.  Didn't even call in to be honest.  And how do I feel about that? Not really caring at this point, which is even worse.  I just don't understand it. I went to bed at a reasonable hour last... Mon, 29 Sep 2008 22:23:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1317843 so this weekend has been really hard and I'm not exactly sure why. I mean I suppose I know why but I didn't think it would go like this I guess. Friday I went to work the whole day and then came home and hung out with the parents for a bit and then studied and went to sleep because I had cla... Sun, 28 Sep 2008 19:57:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1315030 so I am at work so this entry may have to be quick.  So tim, the guy I was living with (not the alcoholic I was posting about) is supposed to be meeting me on saturday to sign over the cable. Well last night I was thinking about him and knew he had posted on craigslist once after I moved out so... Fri, 26 Sep 2008 18:04:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1314041 It was another good day!  It started off a bit hard..not wanting to get out of bed but then I did and showered and wore something cute so that helped my mood.  I then got in the car and as I am driving to work my anxiety starts creeping up in my throat...I wanted to turn around so bad... Fri, 26 Sep 2008 01:15:14 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1312416 that cha cha cha..that's my little dance for the day.  Things are looking up!  I have been on my meds now for about a week and that feels good.  I also returned to work today and did a whole day...one downside to that...because I am a temp employee I no longer have my own desk so ... Thu, 25 Sep 2008 01:01:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1310563 This past weekend was dreadful really.  I can't think of any other words to use to describe it.  Friday was good.  Did the things I needed to do and accomplished enough to feel satisfied.  I was sitting in my den working on my homework when at 1230am, Tim, my ex called. ... Tue, 23 Sep 2008 21:14:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1304212 I have not yet been to work this week and since it is friday will not return until next week.  I talked to my boss today and that seems to be okay so I'm going to go with it.  but now I need to do something.  I need to make a move in the right direction.  I can't think ab... Fri, 19 Sep 2008 17:06:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1303969 So I am required to take a Phy Ed course of 2 credits to get my AA in the spring.  So knowing lazy me I sign up for online Fitness Walking thinking ahhh this class will be easy..it's online and how do you fail Fitness Walking online.  OH MY GOD!  There is so much involved with thi... Fri, 19 Sep 2008 14:23:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1303925 In the past few months I have been away and not coming on here which was wrong of me but clearly I was out of my head.  I met someone who I thought would be my world and things started going really well. I had a job, I got okay grades in school and I had this great guy.  Then he started to... Fri, 19 Sep 2008 13:43:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1303181 It's been a while but I am here now is all I can say.  It's been a rough few months and I am pretty darn low again and trying to pick myself back up.  I wonder why I do this to myself but can never find all the answer.  I just hope to be able to come on here more often again. ... Fri, 19 Sep 2008 00:18:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/180897/journal/1021519 Well the walk is only 3 days away but I have actually gotten $200.00 in donations.  It doesn't meet my goal but at least it's something!  I can't wait for the walk!! I'll post pictures when I get them! Thu, 01 May 2008 14:11:57 +0100