Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal Fri, 05 Sep 2008 09:17:54 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/178242/1214919270.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/178242 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1211123 Hi ho, hi ho . . . Sat, 26 Jul 2008 07:02:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1210244 It is upon us. Leaving for camp 8 am tomorrow. Anxious to see old friends again who I only see this one week a year. No news from the "outside world," no lawyers, no politicians, no gas crisis (other than getting over & back), no nothing but simple, innocent, goofin'... Fri, 25 Jul 2008 16:33:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1186612 Oh, I'm a lumber jack and I'm ok. I sleeps all night and I works all day. Sun, 13 Jul 2008 22:45:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1172475 Picked up Ryan Fri at noon & drove straight to Edinboro to spend the weekend with our best friends (ok, only friends) around here. He & Alex spent alot of time in the bed room playing video games. I sat out by the pool with the other adults sipping white russians & hopping into the pool ... Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:29:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1156480 There are one shitload of fireflies out tonight. Sun, 29 Jun 2008 22:35:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1156474 There was a young man named Pepe. He dated a girl who came home one day from the psych ward where she worked & suggested to him that he see a neuropsychiatrist cuz she believed he was BP.  Pepe saw the Dr. & the next day he was taking Lithium & rapping an hour a week with a Phd psyc... Sun, 29 Jun 2008 22:33:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1118477 My thanks to the friends who have answerded my call. Am taking into account your words. I am obviously lost. Thu, 12 Jun 2008 21:58:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1108891 Well, spent a weekend with Ryan doing the silent routine. He watched movies, played on the computer & practiced his guitar. Spoke about 5 sentences amounting to absolutely nothing. Took him back to meet his mom today & pointed out to him that he would miss a weekend with me in 2 weeks & ... Sun, 08 Jun 2008 22:50:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1079348   Friday eve Ryan didn't speak the entire drive home & fell asleep watching movies. Sat I worked outside until he was awakened by a call from Tim about going tarket shooting later. That's when Ryan first spoke asking questions about when we were going to meet Tim & what kind of ... Mon, 26 May 2008 18:36:43 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1064325    Got home at 9pm. Message on the machine, "Dad, would it be ok if I came home Sunday night instead of Monday?" This would be the 3rd holiday weekend in a row he did this. I call him. "You got something going on this weekend?" "Yea, I guess." "What?... Mon, 19 May 2008 21:46:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1060496 The depression faded away yesturday afternoon. Feeling lethargic today. Sun, 18 May 2008 08:25:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1056436 Holding in the tears. Ready to fall apart. Haven't felt this way in a long time. Gloomy wet day? Work? Life? Or lack of it? Why do you leave me here, SB? Hoping to leave work early to crash & burn in private. Fri, 16 May 2008 10:19:57 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1054288    Easy night of call with only a 2 hr appendectomy at 6p. Off today. What a perfectly beautiful day in NW PA. Laundry's almost finished, dishes done & dog is missing out in the back field. Have been calling her for an hour but I think something stronger calls as well.   ... Thu, 15 May 2008 13:43:32 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1041843    Up since 4:45. Restless night. Head's still spinning. Have this pervasive low-grade adrenalin buzz since April 17's eval.  I feel alive, that's for sure. Taking Ryan to my folk's place so they can fuss over him while I mow the yard. Then a movie. Come home & do ... Sat, 10 May 2008 06:14:10 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1039049    Saw the lawyer at 2p & at 3p the 11th behavior health "specialist" i've had on my bp journey (as required by my employer cuz they're ass holes. But I didn't say that.). My attn told me I'm fucked.  Bend over & squeel like a pig fucked. Well, t... Thu, 08 May 2008 23:18:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1035565    Scheduled to meet with my attourney tomorrow 2pm & the Employee Assistance Program counselor 3pm. Hopefully I'll be able to drag myself there. Failed miserably 2 wks ago. If the attny can't help me am faced with resigning with nowhere to go at age 53. The counselor is going ... Wed, 07 May 2008 15:46:33 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1025407    Walked into the locker room 4:30 pm yesturday. A surgeon was changing to leave & bitching to the sales rep that was leaving as well. Bitching about my manager (the one causing all my grief). I mean ranting & raving bitching, I quietly changed & closed my locker when he walke... Sat, 03 May 2008 07:30:11 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/1010308 Saw "Forbidden Journey" yesturday w/ Ryan & have been incessantly worrying about my seemingly hopeless situation at work. My struggle with negative forces, inside & out, are a struggle of mind & emotion. Fighting them, hating them, allowing them to control me only enforces... Sun, 27 Apr 2008 07:50:21 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/996764     Was called into the HR office (highly unusual) last Thrs to receive my yearly eval along with the HR director, an administrator, my manager & supervisor. Talk about ganging up.  Am effectively on probation for unacceptable job performance based on hearsay statements from ... Mon, 21 Apr 2008 19:59:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/178242/journal/975175     Yesturday dug out all my dusty photo equip, cleaned it up & drove my favorite model out into the woods to Freedom Falls for a shoot. Perfect afternoon- overcast & cool. Had him hopping from rock to rock in front of the falls while I stumbled & slipped down stream to ge... Sun, 13 Apr 2008 09:34:40 +0100