Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 18:51:17 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/169473/1227883052.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/169473 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1399153 Yes, I know.  I haven't been around much.  My boss came into my office a month or so ago and we had the big talk.  She vowed to try to help me get myself together, and, by-dingies, it's working. I've been working my little tushie off at my job, thinking, and getting t... Mon, 24 Nov 2008 19:37:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1351257 There is a phrase so popular that it has become almost a cliche -- remain true to ourselves. It is a good phrase, and caries with it lot of good feedback if followed. Nonetheless, the phrase does contain one very obvious problem, and that is that most of us don't really have a clue as to who ... Tue, 21 Oct 2008 10:57:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1349588 I just watched a video by Louise Hay and I'm going to be trying positive self talk for a while.  Me and myself get along okay, but I certainly think that there is some room for improvement.  My wife was the one given the video by her doctor.  She kept making comments like, "I... Mon, 20 Oct 2008 09:21:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1348316 I just re-read the TOS regarding religion. 6. Religion: DailyStrength has no religious affiliation. However, we believe that religion can play an important role in helping people overcome their challenges. Members must respect other members' differing religious beliefs, and do not assume th... Sun, 19 Oct 2008 09:56:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1339794 Well, I'm in a good mood today.  Very relaxed.  Kind of Zen / Gandhi-like. I have no good reason to account for this raise in mood levels.  If I were to trace my thoughts, it might go back to watching a video someone posted this morning called "don't laugh at me... Mon, 13 Oct 2008 11:49:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1334320 My mood of late has been frighteningly bad.  There is a new sense of disparity and lack of optimism about my future ever improving that is now present that has not been present in the past. Part of the key, I think, is that nothing really brings me joy anymore.  The prospect of a vaca... Thu, 09 Oct 2008 11:39:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1331077 I've finally moved my mood back to the green zone.  Although I'm on the lower end of "good", good seems to be where I am.  I am, at least, as good as I can be considering the longterm sense of futile hopelessness that seems to be a semi-permanent part of my psyke now.... Tue, 07 Oct 2008 10:00:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1325427 I want to sincerely thank everyone for the responses to my last journal entry.  I am going to try to go the way of compromise, but I'm not sure how amenable she will be to that.  I've been on DS maybe 15 minutes over the last two days and she still wound up berating me over it.... Fri, 03 Oct 2008 09:49:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1320139 But don't you understand?  Passion doesn't always count. My brother was very passionate about everything when I was growing up.  We always had to take certain routes in the car.  It didn't matter if the routes took us on dirt roads and took us hours longer to reach ou... Tue, 30 Sep 2008 07:14:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1311038 My mood is still sucky, and to be honest I'm having a little trouble identifying why.  When my shrink asked me the other day I told him that I have been working for 27 years in the same building, have never moved more than two miles from my family home and am currently back IN my family hom... Wed, 24 Sep 2008 07:41:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1307896 It's been a week since my last entry.  I've become addicted to playing Oblivion on the XBox.  It's a dangerous game, in that it doesn't seem to have an end. I've surviving at work, and I'm kinda dying at home.  No motivation.  The house, as usual, is ... Mon, 22 Sep 2008 10:15:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1296759 Not too much to say.  Saturday I sat around like a slug, but on Sunday I got the bathroom cleaned up, washed my clothes, and THEN sat around like a slug.  We watched two DVDs: Juno and Across the Universe.  Both were VERY good. Today was day 3 of my morning workout.  20 mins... Mon, 15 Sep 2008 08:07:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1295031 Sun, 14 Sep 2008 00:15:46 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1292552 I exercised today as well, this time doing the cardio routine on the treadmill for 20 minutes and working up a sweat.  My weight hasn't budged for a while.  I'm hoping that will change soon. Fri, 12 Sep 2008 09:21:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1290812 ...then do something else. Yesterday, while talking to my therapist, I decided that my old routines weren't working.  Obviously not working.  I was going to work late, and my brain was mush when I got there. So, I outlined a new plan.  This morning, I implemented it.... Thu, 11 Sep 2008 08:17:50 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1278127 There is so much about the mind that we don't understand. For the past several weeks/months, my wife has been dancing on the border of psychosis.  Psychosis is that line where the mind loses its ability to distinguish reality. She often steps to the other side, mainly in the form ... Wed, 03 Sep 2008 10:05:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1276825 I go back through my life, and I look at the things that I have done that have brought me to the place I am now and have made me the person that I am now. Some of the moments in my life I recognize a crux moments: moments that clearly changed the course of my life forever after.  Some of t... Tue, 02 Sep 2008 15:25:26 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/169473/journal/1271620 I'm gonna be out of town for a while. Love and peace and peach scented nights. Steve Sat, 30 Aug 2008 00:53:19 +0100