Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal Fri, 25 Jul 2008 02:50:57 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/16895/1216742778.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/16895 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1208290 Thursday, July 24, 2008 – 2:15 P.M. I just returned from getting some physical therapy for my back. The pain has already begun increasing, so I need to take some medicine soon.   After doing a fair amount of pushing, I finally got another appointment to see my social worker (Dale... Thu, 24 Jul 2008 16:17:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1206074 Wednesday, July 23, 2008 – 11:30 A.M. Last night, I received a totally unexpected call from my brother. He wanted to thank me for letting him know about our sister’s boyfriend’s illness. We talked about that for a while, and then he wanted to know about how I was doing, and... Wed, 23 Jul 2008 13:31:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1203817 Tuesday, July 22, 2008—10 A.M.  After getting through the session with my therapist and sister yesterday, I was feeling good enough to finally get a good night’s sleep. My therapist was supposed to call in the afternoon so we could schedule another appointment. The call neve... Tue, 22 Jul 2008 11:59:34 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1202693 Monday, July 21, 2008 – 6:50 P.M. My sister (Alice) and I had a very good session with my therapist (Dale) at the mental health clinic today.  I now believe that Alice understands how important it is for me to have close family ties. I am sure that both Alice and Dale realize that ... Mon, 21 Jul 2008 20:49:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1199668 Sunday, July 20, 2008—9:10 A.M. There is not too much going on here today.  I plan on watching an Indy car race, and will then see some videos.   The “fun” will start tomorrow when I see my social worker along with my sister. I do not have any idea how that wil... Sun, 20 Jul 2008 11:07:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1198231 July 19, 2008 – 10:40 A.M. The main item on my schedule today is watching some videos and trying to unwind from some stress.   Things went much better at bedtime last night. The CNA did not “body slam” me when putting me into bed. I finally felt as though I was landi... Sat, 19 Jul 2008 12:39:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1196546 July 18, 2008 – 11:20 A.M. There are no major events happening in my life, which is good.   I have somehow managed to get a virus, as have two of the people who help me. I am having cramps, and feel like someone is stabbing me in the stomach with a knife. This has lasted more th... Fri, 18 Jul 2008 13:22:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1192182 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 – 10:45 A.M.   I have lived in Colorado for nearly eleven unforgettable years. My primary reason for coming here was to get away from people who had contributed to my initiation into the world of crack cocaine. At the time, I was living peacefully in my own ... Wed, 16 Jul 2008 12:45:35 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1189934 Tuesday, July 15, 2008 – 10:05 A.M. A few months ago, I came up with the term “keep moving forward” in something I wrote. As the days and weeks wore on, I found myself saying this repeatedly. I now consider it a slogan because it describes the way I want my life to go, both ... Tue, 15 Jul 2008 12:06:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1188575 Monday, July 14, 2008 – 6:30 P.M.  I would rather forget today. It almost seems as though last week is repeating itself. My physical therapist called this morning and told me not to go there this afternoon because there would not be enough people to help me. I told her that last T... Mon, 14 Jul 2008 20:32:53 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1185676 Since the group Cats and Dogs Use Claws and Paws has been started, and is still in existence, I think my goal has been reached 100 percent. Sun, 13 Jul 2008 13:29:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1185662 I have not used crack cocaine for:Days - 205Weeks - 29Months - 6 Fifty five percet of my goal has now been reached, although I really want to stay clean until at least Christmas - and even longer, if I can. There are days when I crave it so much that it is all I can do to somehow force myself n... Sun, 13 Jul 2008 13:23:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1185626 I have now gone for 161 days without making any suicidal plans. Forty percent of this goal has now been reached. Even though I have not made any suicidal plans, there have been some days when I have thought that I would be better off dead, or that the world would be a better place without me in... Sun, 13 Jul 2008 12:57:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1185511 Sunday, July 13, 2008 – 9:40 A.M.   Yesterday, I did not write anything here. I drove myself sick with worry about who was right concerning my back pain - my doctor or my physical therapist.   I have been going to the same doctor for more than ten years. He has always seen to... Sun, 13 Jul 2008 11:43:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1182770 Friday, July 11, 2008 – Update   This morning, I went for my usual monthly visit to see my primary care physician. In writing a progress report for him yesterday, my physical therapist nearly scared me to death telling him that I have spondylosis. I have learned it is a spinal disor... Fri, 11 Jul 2008 20:55:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1181696 Friday, July 11, 2008 -- 9:15 A.M.    Just dropping in before going to see my doctor.   My physical therapist thinks I have spondylosis.   I am extremely upset and worried, but what can I do?   No one lives forever – not even me.   Fri, 11 Jul 2008 11:17:45 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1179597 Thursday, July 10, 2008 – 10:35 A.M. Sleep did not come easily last night, but when it finally arrived, it was a relief from the pain and annoyances of the week.  My life has not been going as smoothly as I would like. It is not really anyone’s fault, but just the way of life... Thu, 10 Jul 2008 12:40:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1175126 Tuesday, July 08, 2008 – 12:30 P.M. I am scheduled to see my physical therapist this afternoon. The pain I have today is worse than it was all weekend, so my ride better get here on time!   This morning, I placed an ad in the newspaper offering to give away an old motorized wheel... Tue, 08 Jul 2008 14:28:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1172538 Monday, July 07, 2008 – 10:00 A.M. The only thing different about yesterday is that it went pretty much as planned. That can be scary at times, but I am not knocking it.   I managed to watch the car race that I wanted to see. The wrong driver won, but I cannot be blamed for that.... Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:59:38 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/16895/journal/1170508 Sunday, July 06, 2008 – 10:35 A.M. Luck was with me yesterday. I did have a ride to my sister’s house. The driver even managed to pick me up right on “the dot.” Going home was a slightly different matter. Although my ride did get there, it arrived half an hour early. I... Sun, 06 Jul 2008 12:34:27 +0100