Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal Thu, 04 Dec 2008 18:51:37 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/165467/1213248093.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/165467 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/990193 I don't know if it's because I'm heading out to sea soon...or if it's because I haven't done this in awhile...or if it's because I've been in the same place for too long...but it's time to move on and move up. Time to change apartments...Time to change habits...T... Fri, 18 Apr 2008 22:34:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/965676 They say that using alcohol to supress one's emotions is a sign of mental problems...perhaps it's true, perhaps not. Today was SO incredibly frustrating that the only way I could find to end the frustration, stress, and sheer anger was to drink a glass of Vodka... It worked, I'... Wed, 09 Apr 2008 20:15:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/909857 So, at a friends behest, I am writing another journal entry.  It's been awhile, I know. That's honestly a good thing, though.  That means that I am either doing pretty good, or keeping myself too busy to do bad.  *Shrugs* In any case, I stopped seeing my counselor...simpl... Wed, 19 Mar 2008 00:26:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/897353 Seems I have to squeeze my budget a bit more...I have to BEAT the interest charges to pay off the credit cards. I wonder...*ponders*  Thu, 13 Mar 2008 22:33:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/876830 Well, I seem to have taken a step backward...somehow.  She's not answering my calls again.  The family rumor-mill says that she is upset with me again.  I don't know why, since we haven't spoken since I've started counseling...*Cries*  I'm feeling the dep... Wed, 05 Mar 2008 23:36:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/820480 5 miles on the bike,  0.2 miles climbing. I'll tell you what, the climbing makes it a lot more difficult.  Wed, 13 Feb 2008 21:50:31 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/818745 Well, the good news is that I am coming out of the low that I've had for a few months now...wether it's because things are getting better, or just because it's time for me to cycle upward I don't know.  *Shrugs* The bad news is that this means I don't have as much motiv... Wed, 13 Feb 2008 09:35:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/812107 Geocaching, HO! 2 Miles walking...one cache found!  Sun, 10 Feb 2008 23:46:20 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/802903 Thu, 07 Feb 2008 10:35:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/799902 Skinny-dipping all night long! Don't get too freaked out...it's a song by Vengaboys...playing on my Pandora station right now.  It's such a bouncy song (no pun intended) that it always makes me smile. Anyways, Got a busy week this week...going back down to the boat to do s... Wed, 06 Feb 2008 09:42:00 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/788322 I seem to have reached a leveling-off point with my weight.  I'll admit, I haven't been following the diet to the letter, but I've not strayed too far.  *Shrugs*   I'll have to start working out more to see if I can drag my weight down a bit more.  I still ha... Fri, 01 Feb 2008 21:41:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/777319 *Sighs* What to write... I went to my appointment, well...AN appointment.  Got rescheduled, canceled, remade, etc...talked to the psychologist.  Of course, she didn't have any case history...so I got to tell my entire story all over again. She's writing a report to t... Tue, 29 Jan 2008 01:14:47 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/774360 Well, I HAVE been cheating on this diet this weekend...some chips...M&Ms, a piece of pizza.  (One of those small squares, at least).   Still, I lost a pound anyway.  *Laughs* I have my appointments tomorrow...my boss already told me I can go to the first one, in the morn... Mon, 28 Jan 2008 01:11:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/768646 So, I cheated today on the diet.  I had Sushi this afternoon.  Normally, I wouldn't consider that cheating, since it's really healthy, but I bought enough for three people...and my friends that I was going to eat WITH didn't show up.  I shared a good bit of it, but I still... Fri, 25 Jan 2008 18:41:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/765940 Well, I had another counseling session today.  I told him about everything that happened last night.  He took it well, actually... He's also sending me to the Naval Hospital, mental health division.  I've got an appointment for Mar 5th...0800.  (*Laughs*, there...now... Thu, 24 Jan 2008 19:18:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/763739 I've never cut myself before...but the craving is SO strong...just to feel something real. I don't know what I'm going to do about this...but I don't think I'm going to cut.  I know that's not the right answer, even though it seems like the best one I've got.... Thu, 24 Jan 2008 00:17:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/762144 I've been burning things for a few hours now.  My roommate had all of his stuff shipped up from home, and we have a ton of old furniture and boxes and packaging paper and stuff...all burnable.  So I do.  Staring into the heart of the fireI feel a warm invitation  Living ... Wed, 23 Jan 2008 14:15:27 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/762106 Why can't I just be normal? No matter how much people try to cheer me up, and convince me that my feelings are normal, I know it's not true.  I tell other people their feelings are normal all the time...but what I mean is that their feelings aren't unique.  WE ARE NOT NORM... Wed, 23 Jan 2008 14:01:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/761412 Well, I have definitely hit a plateau with the diet...191.4 pounds...been steady for a few days now.  I don't think I can justisfy eating less...so I'm going to have to excersize more.   Now that I'm coming out of school, and back to the office...I'll be working out wi... Wed, 23 Jan 2008 10:06:01 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/165467/journal/758407 Day 7! I actually gained a little weight this time.  Got that pound back.   Last night I was REALLY hungry, and we decided that a small bowl of cheerios with low-fat milk is a fair filler.  We have added a SINGLE bowl per day, if we are REALLY hungry, AND it's been a cou... Tue, 22 Jan 2008 10:17:03 +0100