Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal Sun, 07 Sep 2008 00:50:30 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/120550/1213251003.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/120550 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/839386 god i miss my friends... god i miss them all.  God I miss feeling secure, feeling ok, feeling like things were ok things would work out.  Its gone its no more.  I drop off the face of the earth and itself it seems.  Then awaken and look around and wish i never woke up.  But ... Wed, 20 Feb 2008 22:45:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/740483 Started my online english composition coarse yesterday and my first assignment is to write an essay about myself.  there is little about me or my situation that i really feel comfortable sharing outside of DS therapist pdoc and few friends.  OH and because i my mom is threatening to put me... Tue, 15 Jan 2008 17:46:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/725598 Reality check.  Am 27 have no friends that i can meet or do things with.  No job.  Nada and it is not getting any better regardless what i do because my head is destroyed as is my heart.  I want out but God is cruel and decided to take a 15 year old's life (lived in my neighb... Thu, 10 Jan 2008 10:36:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/723242 Wed, 09 Jan 2008 14:26:55 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/712405 going to give this a shot first.  Honestly would really like GF but have difficulties talking and get nervous/freaked at times so starting small.   Also this is a goul that will require help from friends seeing as it is to make/ be a better friend.  Let me know how I am doing.  T... Sat, 05 Jan 2008 16:38:03 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/705459 i can't sleep its too painful right now.  I am slipping and have no idea what to do about it or how to stop it.  Last night was one of the worst nights i have ever experienced.  I woke up shaking then i froze up and could not move i tried to move but could not.  I was mortifi... Thu, 03 Jan 2008 00:24:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/659914 ok back and feeling better. Thu, 13 Dec 2007 11:20:24 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/656033 to all my fiends on this sight.  Sorry if i have not been around as much been a strange and painful few days and often i withdrawl myself when this happens.   Tue, 11 Dec 2007 17:19:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/655994 went with mom today to fill out papers for ss disability (honestly felt lost and confused the whole time).  Now find myself looking back and am starting to get depressed.  Its all such a mess trying to go over everthing that happened when it happened what is my "diegnosses" whats what...... Tue, 11 Dec 2007 16:54:36 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/641334 I am starting to slowly realize that the best thing i ever hoped to have is gone and what is left is sooo messed up that letting anyone else in is difficult to say the least.  Not that i do not wish to, and i pray every night that it happens, but that I may very well not be able to anymore.  It is... Tue, 04 Dec 2007 20:53:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/120550/journal/641232 well had therapy today... suggested coarse of action... hospital or call pdoc asap.  also fack it till you make it though i feel that i have been fakeing to much as of late so not going to do that one, nor am i going to hospital.  did call pdoc but he has yet to get back to me.  Also said "y... Tue, 04 Dec 2007 20:11:07 +0100