Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal Wed, 20 Aug 2008 16:55:02 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/female.gif http://dailystrength.org/people/115451 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1252081 Hello My Love, Well I went away on my alone vacation. The resort I stayed was beautiful and I did very well on my own. I got myself checked in and settled went to the beach with my IPOD with all my songs that remind me of you, I walked around thinking of how much you would have loved being ther... Mon, 18 Aug 2008 14:37:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1232416 Good Morning love, Well I have told so many people about seeing you the other morning and I have gotten so many responses. I was speaking to Sam's mother last night she was our daughter Terra's best friend who was killed in an auto accident 2 months after you died. Her mother is trying ... Thu, 07 Aug 2008 10:04:22 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1227471 My love, I have spent a year hearing people tell me how their loved ones have contacted them in one way or another. I have went to see Sylvia Browne in hopes of leaning how to communicate with you, she says our loved ones are with us and we might not always notice when they are making contact w... Mon, 04 Aug 2008 15:22:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1225595 Hello my dear, I was just writing and thinking of what I could do to help our son. He has gotten so closed off to the world it is scary. He spends all day and night in his room on his computer playing games. He refuses go anywhere, I have tried to take him to the movies or dinner or even out to... Sun, 03 Aug 2008 13:23:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1222675 My dearest love, Today is Aug 1st and at this time last year I did not think in a million years you would be gone in 10 days. You were still smiling and happy. I know you gave it your best and you were willing to try anything to live. Maybe you knew it would not be much longer, I sure did not. ... Fri, 01 Aug 2008 14:32:17 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1215049 Hello my love, Well I was at your grave Thursday and someone stole everything I had placed there for you. I could not believe a person is such a low life worthless human being to steal from your grave. Your sleeping Cherub angel was gone, they lifted your vase up and took the flower ring aroung... Mon, 28 Jul 2008 14:49:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1206212 Hello my love, Well your family reunion went very well, or as well as it could without you. It was very hot and I noticed the crowds have gotten smaller, maybe due to the heat or maybe because we are losing so many family members. Our daughter made it there she is about 3 months pregnant and I ... Wed, 23 Jul 2008 14:55:06 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1202201 Hello babe, Just wanted you to know I took the kids to your families reunion this weekend. It was hard with you not by my side and all of your family still had funny stories of you and your precious smile. It was very hot as always, I went back to the hotel to cool off as we always did. I wishe... Mon, 21 Jul 2008 15:58:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1177122 Hello my love, I have been getting very anxious about the one year anniversary of your death. I am very sad but more mad then anything. How did something that should be clear to any medical professional be so overlooked that it took your life. Well I am so mad I am telling the world how I feel,... Wed, 09 Jul 2008 11:39:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1162424 Hey Babe, I am not going to ramble on about this 4th of July and not having you here because it serves no purpose to you and no one really cares anyway. So I will tell you I will be thinking of you, not going anywhere I think the kids and I will just have a cook out. I have never started your g... Wed, 02 Jul 2008 12:05:07 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1151766 Hello My Love,  Well your son just turned 17, it is so hard to believe he has grown so quickly. I still remember after we had 2 girls and I got pregnant again I had that sonogram it showed a boy and you still would not believe anyone. You said when it comes out and I see for myself then I will ... Fri, 27 Jun 2008 14:23:05 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1128660 Hello Glenn, Well Father's Day has come and gone, another one of those hurdles we face. The kids still remember how you took them to Chinoteague for Father's Day weekend they had a good time with just you. I know how much pain you were in but as always you suffered for your kids. They d... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 14:28:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1114636 Hello my dear,  it was 10 months ago at this time I saw you take your last breath. That day I will never forget. How you looked the sudden way your eyes opened and then shut. The way you had taken your last breath. I hope you knew I was there,  I hope you saw me standing next to you. ... Wed, 11 Jun 2008 09:55:23 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1103902 God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be. So he put his arms around you and whispered " Come To Me". With tearful eyes we watched you, and saw you pass away. Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God ... Fri, 06 Jun 2008 11:37:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1099055 My dearest love, It has been a while since I wrote to you not because you are not on my mind but just too many other things happening at once. Well I am in total distress again because our daughters lung cancer surgery was postponed due to she is pregnant. With all she has been through and to d... Wed, 04 Jun 2008 12:03:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1056915 Hello my love, Well Mother's Day was the 9 months since you passed away and the memories were hard. This has been a very bad month so far. Between Mother's Day without you, I also spent my 50th birthday without you. I met with some other widows are we are so well known. and we had ... Fri, 16 May 2008 13:55:52 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/1032931  Hello my love, Well the months are passing quickly and my heart aches so bad. I try to put on a happy face so I don't make everyone feel uncomfortable, it is the big fake as I call it. I went to another funeral and it really brings me back to yours. I look at the loved ones grieving a... Tue, 06 May 2008 14:33:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/992273 My dearest love it has been 8 months since you left us and the pain is so bad. It has been a really bad week, the crying just starts for no reason and I can't seem to shake it.  I think it was really hitting me this week you are gone and nothing can bring you back. I don't know how I wi... Sat, 19 Apr 2008 22:12:12 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/921252 My dearest love, One year ago today I brought you a Easter dinner to the hospital. This is the first Easter in 32 years we have not been together and it has been a tough one. I cooked all your favorites only to realize you are not here to enjoy them. The kids ate and went about their business, ... Sun, 23 Mar 2008 19:43:44 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/115451/journal/901894 My dearest love, I was at your grave and since they cleaned the cemetary it looks so empty, I had some flowers in the car so I placed them on your grave. I can not stand leaving your grave so plain, no flowers your resting place has to be beautiful and I will see to it that it is. I got a call ... Sat, 15 Mar 2008 22:13:34 +0100