Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal Fri, 09 Jan 2009 23:49:26 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/113660/1213280632.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/113660 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/1004143 i woke up this morning and fell into a full blown panic attack. my heart is breaking. i haven't visited this site in a while and it seems as though i only visit it when i am so depressed that i can't even function normally. last i wrote, i had a gf and things were great. i guess i still... Thu, 24 Apr 2008 13:47:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/632061 things are going much better now as of right now. i've been seeing much more of my girl lately. i told her that i love her. she is moving to cali in a few weeks, but we are going to figure out a way for me to go out there with her because i can't live without her. Fri, 30 Nov 2007 11:31:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/618976 i feel terrible. my gf as of one week has been out with new friends for days. for the past month or so, i have seen her almost every single day, but it's now saturday and i haven't seen her since tuesday. she used to call me the second she'd wake up and try to see me every chance she got... Sat, 24 Nov 2007 15:35:42 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/603738 UPDATE!!!ok so i am really happy as of right now. aubrey asked me to be her girlfriend yesterday so we are like totally official and i think i am in love with her. :D Sat, 17 Nov 2007 12:10:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/568889 why do i always fall for the players? it's like, i can see exactly what i am getting myself into, but i still do it because i get so twitterpated and just want to be happy more then anything. even if i know that it won't last very long and that i'll be even more unhappy when it's all... Fri, 02 Nov 2007 13:46:15 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/550916 hi everyone. i'm feeling ok for now i suppose. as i mentioned in my last entry... i'm really starting to fall for this girl aubrey. things seem to be going really good with her lately. i met her 2 weeks ago from this friday and i see her just about every day even though she lives like 20 min... Thu, 25 Oct 2007 20:36:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/529633 it's been a while since i wrote and i guess i need to get a few things out... i've been trying really hard lately to not abuse any drugs. i got pretty wasted last week and i took some xanax over the weekend, but other then that, i've been doing really good. i actually think it's beca... Tue, 16 Oct 2007 22:00:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/492857 it's been a few days since i last wrote. my weekend went pretty good considering how bad i've felt lately. i just kept myself as busy as i could and it made the time go by much faster. i was feelin kinda sad last night, so i drank a bit and i guess i tried to pierce my nose. haha. i'm no... Mon, 01 Oct 2007 14:17:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/479681 it's been a long day. i haven't left my house all day. today wasn't too miserable, but my stupid ex just started texting me like half an hour ago and won't stop. i mean, she's not being mean or saying anything too upsetting, but when i see her name pop up on my phone, it literall... Wed, 26 Sep 2007 00:44:30 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/478404 i am feeling much better today then i was yesterday, which really isn't saying much at all. i think it's because it's all sunny instead of stormy like yesterday. i really love rain and storms and dark clouds, but i think my mind and body are having a hard time dealing with the seaso... Tue, 25 Sep 2007 15:29:37 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/113660/journal/475917 thus ends another day. time for me to unravel my thoughts and put them in a wooden chest. oh how i wish for such a privilege. how grand would it be to have a free mind? free of  the constant mental wanderings that try to seduce me into that black hole that is my  reality. to me, ignorance ... Mon, 24 Sep 2007 17:06:58 +0100