Keep a personal wellness journal on DailyStrength to track your health and communicate with friends. http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal Fri, 09 Jan 2009 23:47:19 +0100 DailyStrength RSS 0.11.3.0.6833 (FeedCreator 1.7.2) http://dailystrength.org/images/comprofiler/avatar/111775/1213278582.jpg http://dailystrength.org/people/111775 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/591358 What to write about?  Expect no mind altering revelations from me- this is a plain, what I did journal now with ocassional glimpes of semi brilliance.Boring weekend.  I felt crappy most of the weekend- running to the bathroom and having stomach pains.  I did get some jewlery made and ... Mon, 12 Nov 2007 09:36:58 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/580606 I think it finally happened- I met my own tail coming in the door today!  LOL  Wow- does time fly.  Wed, 07 Nov 2007 13:10:04 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/574802 Have not had time for giving a lot of hugs or reading much ;ately.  I still want to keep my journal up.  It helps so much in all aspects of life.  We had a nice weekend, although SO and I had another fight about his apparent lack of ambition.  Kids are starting to head in, so mor... Mon, 05 Nov 2007 08:04:48 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/568389 TGIF  Took yesterday off school so I could feel well enough to go to my first grief counseling group last night.  I woke up Thursday morning with a touch of an upper respiratory infection- I get them a lot.  Comes from having 180 12-14 year olds in and out of my room on a daily basis!... Fri, 02 Nov 2007 09:33:56 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/562349 I want my Mom. Tue, 30 Oct 2007 18:52:49 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/561306 Wow- thanks for commenting on my journal entry.  It has been such a hectic two months.  Mom and Dad died the week before school meetings started for me.  Since then, things have been a blur and I can't seem to get caught up. I can't believe it's been two months. ... Tue, 30 Oct 2007 10:57:02 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/543057 Not doing great- the 2 month anniversary of Mom's death is Wednesday.  Hospice called and left a message asking of I needed anything.  I want Mom! The funny thing is- I have never had this level of freedom (or lack of responsibility for another person) before.  I didn't r... Mon, 22 Oct 2007 19:10:08 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/530879 I picked up the roll of film om it yesterday that had Mom's funeral home pics on it.  I was in for a surprise when I saw thet Christmas was also on the roll!  Mom was diagnosed just after Christmas last year and had spent the holidays with me at my house as usual.  It was nice see... Wed, 17 Oct 2007 12:24:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/525957 Am procrastinating today- please forgive any spelling mistakes as I type really fast- two fingeredbut fast!  LOL  I have a pile of papers to correct, so why am I typing a journal entry?  Because I have a huge pile of papers to correct! This school year has been rather difficult.... Mon, 15 Oct 2007 13:14:09 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/520640 Today is Homecoming and school let out a little early.  SO and I (significant other) went to a rock and fossil show when I got home.  I found four little boxes to use for Mom's ashes for my brothers and myself, and yes, I know they are NOT actually ashes, but I much prefer that to ... Fri, 12 Oct 2007 21:03:39 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/519186 Thank goodness it is Friday!!!  The weeks are passing by so quickly I can't believe it.  You know what amazes me is the fact that sometimes the thought "Mom is dead" still takes me completely by surprise and stops me in my tracks.  I am still unable to focus on getting t... Fri, 12 Oct 2007 08:09:16 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/516990 I feel like I am chasing my tail (if I had one) here at school.  I have two new subjects this year; and three subjects total.  It is VERY draining.  Last year I taught on a team that blocked classes and this year I am on my own, switching classes 7 times a day.  On top of that, m... Thu, 11 Oct 2007 10:20:28 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/511721 This sounds so stupid, but I was getting groceries last night and came upon the dried beef jars I always bought for my mom.  She couldn't get them easily where she lived so I stocked up for her.  She'd save the glass jars and use them for drinking glasses.  I started to tear u... Tue, 09 Oct 2007 09:35:29 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/509456 Around one in the morning, the aide came in and asked us to leave so she could change Mom and clean her up.  I think she had wet the bed.  Earlier in the day she had looked at me and said "I have to pee".  She was too weak to get off the bed and I told her to just go ahead a... Mon, 08 Oct 2007 13:08:25 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/502572 On Thursday, August 23, the nursing home called at 5:30 in the morning to tell us  Mom was not doing well and wanted us to come in.  I think she requested we come in.  One thing I noticed right away is that she appeared to have had another stroke of some type- her lip was drooping on ... Fri, 05 Oct 2007 11:15:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/500174 To briefly continue my story- I went racing over to Mom's apartment.  My older brother and his father in law were getting ready to leave with a load for the storage locker.  My brother came over to speak to me and I told him "Don't you dare F*** ing speak to me right now"... Thu, 04 Oct 2007 11:43:51 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/492456 I will resume my story at a later point. It's noon and I am showered and wearing my jammies.  My cat is on my lap and I have been reading through the postings.  I am playing hooky from school today.  LOL.  I am feeling pretty good, although I finally starting sorting out... Mon, 01 Oct 2007 11:37:54 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/490916 My brother and I came back up on Tuesday afternoon and went immediately to see Mom.  She asked me to spend the night again and I said no- which of course, I now regret.  I was so stressed out, I needed to sleep and I knew I wouldn't if I stayed there as I had before.  She was fine... Sun, 30 Sep 2007 18:33:18 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/486240 She entered the nursing home on August 14th.   She was okay, although worried about her vision, which was blurring and she couldn't see as well anymore.  She always had the TV on, more for company, I think.  She was on morphine and a pain patch and hospice took her off of her... Fri, 28 Sep 2007 14:53:19 +0100 http://dailystrength.org/people/111775/journal/485353 So.... Mom was back in the hospital.  She was there for a month receiving raditaion therapy and had her chest cavity drained twice before they put in a chest tube.  She was glad to be back but was also glad she tried going home.  She needed to see for herself whether she could manage ... Fri, 28 Sep 2007 08:08:29 +0100