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I'm exhausted. Do you know what it feels like to be so sleepy damn but completely unable to get to sleep? It's killing me. I'm being forced to go to school tomorrow, but they just don't understand how hard it is for me to wake up in the morning and get there. I take the bus at 8 am. That means I get about an hour or two of sleep eack night. Please, someone, how can I either get out of going to school, or finally be able to sleep again...if that's possible at all.
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I have it in my hand, the razor. I dont know what to do with it. I dont know why I've come back down to this. I feel like screaming and just throwing it away, but it is like it can't leave my hand. Like I have to hurt myself. It will make me feel better. But for how long? A few hours? A day? Eventually the pain will come back. So what do I do? My hand just can't seem to drop it. I need someone to talk to right now but it seems like there is no one. No one really cares. No one would notice if I died. Help?
finally, I had gotten better. I stopped for about two weeks. but I started again today. And once I start I cannot stop. I have a bag full in my room and I have no idea of what to do with it. honestly, I am the stupidest person on this planet.
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a bag full of what..? what kind of drugs is it? i have a drug addiction as well, i know the feeling. i always try to stop, but i know il just start again when something bad happens.
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I'm addicted to anything sugar--in general--and choco, in particular...also, protein stuff, after hours...
Might not be in exactly the same boat, as you, but I sure do know those "feelings" of having something & trying not to get into it...
Have you tried getting out of the house, for a while? Maybe going someplace that's similar in happiness, to where you used to go as a kid, to have fun? It might just give you a breather...let us know how things go...I do so feel for you.
it sounds like you have disabilities and can't go to school. What is forcing you to go? Do you have family that knows about your problems and self harm? You need to get help with all these things. Tell us more about yourself, and we can be more helpful.
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