I am afraid I did not have my
hysterectomy until recently. But I can say I know the feeling of not being able to have children. I did become pregnant, but in the early stages each time, I lost the baby. I did finally have a full term pregnancy. It was the fifth one. But the next one, I lost again. I can only say, when I saw a young woman in an office of a church I went to, and I saw how so very much she resembled the child I have, I went to her and I could not hold back the tears, she could have been one of mine. I have never felt that way before. Instead of the young woman feeling stressed or afraid of me, she actually came out and stood in front of me and let me touch her face. She looked JUST like my child. I could not believe it, and she let me touch her and cry and she seemed as if she was one of mine, she never backed away. She was a relaxed and calm and as if in a, I cannot explain it, she was as if one of mine. She must be the baby in her family and must get loved all the time. She just let me cry and touch her and caress her face and I believe she might have let me hug her, but I didn't want to scare her. I just kept looking back at her as I left and she stood as if, it was something that had such a calming effect on her. She seemed to enjoy the attention. MY EMOTIONS WERE SO AFFECTED BY SEEING HER. I HAVE ALWAYS GOTTEN UPSET WHEN I WONDER WHAT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE TO HAVE HAD ALL OF THEM TOGETHER. I am afraid that that is as close as I can get to understanding how it is you must be feeling. To suddenly realize, there is no chance of ever feeling that, BUT, remember what I have remembered, there are gazillions of children who need a parent to love them. Don't forget them. You may be the parent one of them needs so very desperately. Try this site:
hystersisters.com, you will need to register to be part of that group, but they seem to have what you may be looking for.
