Sexual Abuse Support Group

The image of being inside my wife in our house is the only thing that will stop the fear and anger sometimes. There are times I have to feel the safety of just being hooked up without having to perform or be made to finish and clothes on or clothes off doesn't matter.. I have a couple pictures of my wife in case if I have to see a domineering pornographic pictures like in malls and bill boards.
The safety of displacing the image of having to perform on a prostitute with being safetly inside my wife is overwhelming and life saving sometimes. I sometimes would be there for ever even if she only wants to for a few minutes.

Never thought about this much. Good topic and something to think about. However one thing is for sure and others here advised it. If it is healthy and not hurting you or others. Nor is it perverse such as many partners or some other un natrual thing. Then accept it and enjoy it. Hey you might even had a high sex drive to begin with and it was spared the damage from the truama. No need to stress or worry if it falls in line whith what we talked about.

: ) Still very interesting topic never thought about it till now Thanks

I've also read a book about the five different love languages. One way of expressing or receiving love is through touch. Perhaps this is your love language? (The other four - if I can remember them are words of affirmation, spending time with someone, helping or serving someone, giving things and receiving things. I think that's what the other love languages are.)

Don't know if this relates or explains or not, but thought I would throw my 2 cents in, too.

As a teen, I used sex as a weapon, an attention grabber, and a means to get what I wanted. It just never meant anything to me. I guess it would be fair to call me a slut. When I was married, I literally couldn't stand to be touched. I know it sounds weird, but I have no problem with meaningless sex or being used, but...., I have a lot of problems with having sex with someone I love. Like I say, all bets are off when you've been hurt. We are all normal in our own maladaptive ways.
If your loved, and you love to express it, I think you're ahead of the game.