Self-Injury Support Group

My story, so to say begins....well i dont really know where, i just know when it started to take over my life.

Backstory: In nov. 2007 i took on a huge responsibility for a 19 year old, and thats taking in a 25 year old woman and her 3 year old daughter, who i had fallen madly in love with over the internet, met a few times in real life, then decided to make the move. i love them both with all my heart, but over the months, something inside me changed, i became angry at the world, i felt stress and fears i felt i couldnt share with anyone else for fear of shame. There would be nights i would drink too much, and would lose control, i would hurt myself, others, either physically or emotionally. At first we just thought i was just having a breakdown because of the alcohol. then in april of this year, we moved closer to my home, and i thought a lot of my stresses and worries would go away, but they didnt, they got worse. i lost my job in the beginning of june, and havent been able to find steady work since. i started to distrust everything and everyone, even those i loved most, I would cut myself, burden myself with immense guilt, specially when i did harm to others, it was like the ultimate high of infliction. Recently it reached a breaking point, where her daughter's ex-husband was so scared for their lives he bought both of them plane tickets, but i now know whats wrong with me, and trying to get help, i've talked a lot with my parents, and even plan on seeing a professional councilor. but im here because i wanted to know the views of those who have been through this, and could possibly have a revelation i once did not see to help return myself to normal so i can get the love of my life back home to me.
Posted on 07/16/08, 02:07 pm