Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception or expression of reality and by significant social or occup...
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The past and our reactions to it make us who we are. The present can change the person formed by the past, but if the present mimics the past, then the past causes the future. This is my case.
What happened back then happens now, therefore I cannot simply forget what happened. Every day, I begin to feel more and more distant from humanity. I begin to feel as if I am in a video game, for a euphemism, as if I am the player, and all other people are simply characters in the game. I sometimes feel it's all a dream, or maybe I'm in control of everything. Then... I snap out of it, but it has come on so frequently now. I know of disassociation, and I'm aware that I have this, but I'm unaware of how I might stop it. For some, it is an escape... it is for me, but this escape might prove dangerous if I lose touch completely. In my moments of clarity, reality bogs me down and suicidal thoughts prevail. My only comfort lies in pain killers, or the thoughts conquer me. Reality brings me closer to death, while fantasy brings me closer to insanity. There is no gray in this world of black and white I see. Does anyone fear they may become insane? It is my greatest fear. I have never feared death, injury, animals, or any such thing, but I have always feared my mind would consume itself. The more I think, the more I warp everything. I'm only asking if someone can relate. I am not asking for help, as your effort would be wasted, just as all psychologists' and friends' efforts have been. Does anyone understand this fear of mine? Can anyone relate? Thank you in advance. Posted on 10/12/07, 03:10 am |
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You're not going to go insane. There're too many treatments today for that. You will keep coming back even if you become delusional and you'll have to deal with that as I have. The thinking is the thing. We will never stop thinking because it's natural and we can't. So yeah, things seem a little (out there!) 
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The problem is, will I stop getting treatment? Someday, I might perhaps justify going without any treatment in my mind, somehow.
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I understand were you are coming from, your mind doesn't want to shut off and you can't decided what is real what isn't at times. I can relate to your writings more than you know. Just try and hang in there.
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