Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) or is u...
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I am a mess today. I am letting old thoughts creep in about what I could've done differently and maybe my relationship wouldn't have ended. I am back to blaming myself. I know this is stupid and I've been thinking about all his abusive language and ways to me. But, deep down I keep thinking maybe I should've done something differently.
I guess when you hear for 5 years that it is all your fault, you really begin to believe it. I want to talk to him so bad and it makes me mad at myself for wanting to talk to him. I know I can't go back. I know I am stronger than this. I'm probably having a weak day. I'm on here telling others to be strong and giving advice and support, yet today, inside I am a mess and feel like I'm breaking down. I know what I should think, but my heart isn't catching up quick enough. I feel like I'm drowning today. Posted on 05/16/08, 10:05 am |
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I know my ex will never call me, and I am glad for that. In fact, when I went back to him after I left him for 4 months (this was 2 years ago), he told me that he was glad I called him because he let his pride get in the way and he never would've called me. He said he was so relieved I called him. I wish I never would've called him after those 4 months. I had been taking care of my mom who had breast cancer and I was so alone and I broke down and called him.
be strong Melanie. don't answer his call if he calls you. just because he calls doesn't mean you have to talk to him. 
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I agree - this, too, shall pass, as horrible as it feels right now. Melanie, you're right - celebrate each day... And 1 day at a time... 1 moment at a time... Give yourself time. We can do it - I am so thankful for all of you!!!! Btw - I think we want so much to think that the positive parts of the relationship will win out, but we have gotten this far in realizing they are ABUSIVE/MANIPULATIVE/CONTROLLING -*&^$)^#@ - don't give in - love comes in many forms, and they are NOT skilled at giving it (without the additional BS involved)!
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I think that, as we heal, the times when we sink get fewer and farther between the ones when we don't. It's okay to miss him - we all want that intimacy - it is a driving force as human beings. We all want to mate and feel important and wanted and cherished (and, for the record, the ones we have been with only know how to do that - if at all - at SELECTIVE TIMES)!
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