Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group

i gave birth to my daughter on the 5th of may and he seemed to have changed for the better he really did but my the 4th day he had me by the throat as i had mentioned i would like her to have my last name big no no he said it had to be his and if mine was there there would big trouble. he told his mum that i was being heartless and trying to cut them all out to which she now is a bit of with me and that was hurtful as i like his mum and we get on great in fact i get on better with his mum than him!
on the 6th day he accused me of going into my sons round from the bath naked and sitting on his carpet!!! and i said yeah sure i abuse my son as its not the first time and he had me by the throat choking me i nearly passed out he threw me to the floor while still on my neck and picked this piece of wood up his mum had come round and pulled him away i went into the bathroom as i was still losing blood and the way he had threw me about i was leaking went through my clothes. he followed me and asked what i was doing so i told him and he denied throwing me to the floor i went downstairs and outside for a smoke and he followed staring an evil stare then asked if i need help as im sick in the head i said no your the one that needs help and he dragged me back into the house threatened to kill me and i said go on i'll do it myself so he dragged me up stairs and chucked me a knife daring me to do it well all the presure and everything i thought ok so i started hacking at my wrist he grabbed it off me and threatened to stab me with it and i said no and he punched my hand. he later came back as i could hear his mum as she had come back and then his mama. he said have a rest as your stressed. 5 mins later he goes baby needs changing i would do it but havent got a strong stomach!!!!
the following day he brought up when i went out one night its a year ago the only night i went out and started saying he knows i slept around. weve had this conversation 100s of times so i said fine im a whore to which he called me a fat whore then he said he wasnt calling me fat.
then the other night his brother was round and normally i get accused of eyeing him up well he made a fat joke i was sorting the baby out and didnt really hear it proberly so i said it doesnt matter to which later i got told off for making him look like a fool as he stuck up for me and i said it didnt matter which made it look like he was bothered about what i look like and hes not. so i had to say sorry.
he wont leave properly hes forever hugging me and kissing me i said to him how can he kick off at me the way he does then be loving the next minute.
i told him i feel trapped with him and that im not happy but im staying there(my house not his) and that he will proberly end up killing me he didnt like that!!!
Posted on 05/14/08, 12:05 pm