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Journal Entry for July 18, 2008
see my last journal to read the poem my mum wrote today.. and i got big news but its a maybe thing.. i have been talking to a girl who was looking for a marmoset and i was helping her out telli...by: daddyslit...
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I had a dream last night. I slit my own throat but...
reborn296 Jul 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
I had a dream last night. I slit my own throat but i failed in suceeding to kill myself... what does this dream mean? Does it say tha i want to die but my will to live is stronger? I sit saying that i dont care but I will try my hardest to hang on? Sometimes i feel like calling for help but theres never anybody to answer. I realized today that i wear a mask. I never knew but i always hide my true...
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HungryHeidi Jul 24, 2008
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So I'm in class and I feel rude about being on...
bamabm87 Jul 24, 2008
Journal Entry for July 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
So I'm in class and I feel rude about being on my computer but I need to talk to someone.
Well I'm bored at school so I thought baout going to my parents. But then my mother keeps insisting on having Brian in our conversations, worst she uses is fucking childhood nickname, and it's uncomfrotable.
I know her girlfriend has cancer and she's been under the knife twice and has to go int... -
Candida I saw candida doctor on Wednesd...
StarWars38 Jul 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
Candida
I saw candida doctor on Wednesday. Test results came back, I tested positive for candida overgrowth.
He told me that the goal is to:
1) stop the yeast
2) kill the yeast
3) build my immunity.
He wants me to:
-continue on the candida diet,
-take shots for building immunity,
-prescribed Nystatin to kill yeast for 6 months
-test for thyroid p...1 Recommendation1 Comment -
Every day it is getting a little easier to forgive...
TrevorJames Jul 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
Every day it is getting a little easier to forgive myself. Things happened and I changed. I am changing back. I will continue to change and always try to improve myself in all areas of my life.
I will never get to know her again, because she would rather ignore me. That is the person she is. She avoids and ignores her problems. I shouldn't of married her. I suppose that is just another mistak...1 Recommendation -
Hi, i hope all my friends are doing well. I am doi...
janz Jul 24, 2008
Journal Entry for July 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
Hi, i hope all my friends are doing well. I am doing ok. Trying to get through the everyday struggles of dealing with working and keeping the bills paid. My husband has been having problems with his arthrituis in his legs, he is going tomorrow for a bone density test. They think his bones might be damaged from his have taken prednisone so long. If its not one thing its another. we are also having...1 Recommendation -
God i am begging You to please help me find the ri...
NitaSue62 Jul 24, 2008
God Please Help Me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*TRIGS*
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
God i am begging You to please help me find the right medication/s.
I just don't know how many more years of this i can take. I am afraid of getting to my final breaking point and succeed in killing myself. It all hurts so deeply.
I am in anguish, i am desperate.
I keep going over ways to kill myself in my head.
The one i am thinking about today is to just go down to the river, in a secluded ar...1 Recommendation4 Comments -
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HungryHeidi Jul 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I think I am gonna make Lasagna tonight for dinner. I have never made it before but I found an easy recipe online, so I hope its good...I LOVE Lasagna!
I am doing laundry and I cleaned the bathroom and now im tired. Chase let me order 3 books last night. Half.com has books for .75 cents each so thats cool..with shipping 3 books com...3 Comments -
what is this whole friendship thing about nowadays...
badbluey Jul 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
what is this whole friendship thing about nowadays?
check me out sounding like an old fart! but seriously, i thought i had it all sussed.
i'v lost, misplaced, n grown apart from many a mate in my time, but my true friends seem to b a real permanant fixture.
i have a a lil view on people i spend time with:
aquaintences; those who, if they happen to b in the same bar, i will laugh, joke n drink w...1 Recommendation -
Well it is Thrusday night again... The night of th...
babyphatcat Jul 24, 2008
It's Thursdayyyyyyy!!! whooo hoooo
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Well it is Thrusday night again... The night of the week I wait for... Poker night (: I am very excited and can play pretty relaxed the next 2 weeks since I am going to regionals already.. But if I want to win the money and gift certificates I still have to work for it. I don't really take it to seriously, I really never have. But since I am holding a first spot lead... It is nice to defend i... -
really tired today. somtimes i wonder if meds make...
kevlar Jul 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
really tired today. somtimes i wonder if meds make things worse and make me so tired i hate them. hope there geting bored with me becuz only got messed with 2 times today but called lot names. didnt cry this time but i cut really bad 7 times on my side. i still want do more but so tired. hope can go tomorow to therapy. still sad other family didnt want me. they were nice and i liked them. sad i w...1 Recommendation -
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NitaSue62 Jul 24, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
wish i had someone to just hold me. i am so unbearably sad for so many reasons. i don't even know what to say anymore.1 Recommendation2 Comments
Thursday, July 24, 2008 |
I had a dream last night. I slit my own throat but i failed in suceeding to kill myself... what does this dream mean? Does it say tha i want to die but my will to live is stronger? I sit saying that i dont care but I will try my hardest to hang on? Sometimes i feel like calling for help but theres never anybody to answer. I realized today that i wear a mask. I never knew but i always hide my true...1 Recommendation3 Comments -
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a long day!!! a...
daddyslit... Mar 29, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
a long day!!!
a long day of misery,
a long day of pain,
a long day of heartache,
things will never be the same,
a long day of questions,
a long day with no answers,
a long day of whatevers,
damn i ran out of chances,
a long day trying to make things right,
a long day trying to get through,
a long day trying to make things better,
trying to work out what the hell to do,
a long day thinking things over,
a ...2 Recommendations12 Comments -
hey hunny bunnysitting on my laphow ya doing baby ...
daddyslit... Apr 20, 2008
my guardian angel ----i got you
Sunday, April 20, 2008
hey hunny bunny
sitting on my lap
how ya doing baby girl
coz i am feeling crap
but now im lookin at your smile
and im looking in your eyes
i know ya looking after me
there is no suprise
ya cuddle me wen im down
and i cuddle you right back too
we look after eacher
your the reason i made it through
ill hang onto this moment
when my tears hit ur skin
you take away all bad vibes
you take away all sin
my face suffoca...4 Recommendations9 Comments -
i learned to smile even when i wanted to cry.i lea...
disa May 22, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
i learned to smile even when i wanted to cry.i learned not to make a sound as tears roled down my check.i had to act like everything was fine even though she just beat me .if i wasnt convencing another beating was the prize. i stop crying ouy loud when she beat me,i refused to give her the satifaction of hearing me cry.i havent cryed out loud since i was 7. &nbs...4 Recommendations8 Comments -
My heart can't possibly break anymore,it was n...
poohscorner Jul 09, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
My heart can't possibly break anymore,it was never whole to begin with.
The day you hit the pavement with blood flowing out,you took my heart and mind with you.
My heart will never heal,my mind will never be the same.
The pain of you not being here is too much to handle.
Sometimes I wish I was in a diffrent world,where a heart can not feel the pain of your absence.
My kids need their grandma...the...2 Recommendations7 Comments -
Hey Everyone, Its been awhile since i've poste...
unlovedde... Apr 29, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 |
Hey Everyone,
Its been awhile since i've posted a poem and i thought i'd come and post one for you all,
sorry it still isnt a happy poem. I also apologise if this poem hurts or upsets anyone that isnt the intention.
Luvya All,
Becka
xoxox
At Night!!!!
Midnight, Pitch black, lying in bed,
Listening to thoughts that crowd my head
Not knowing when they’ll stop,
Or if they’ll kill me or n...1 Recommendation7 Comments -
mirrors crack think there talking behind your back...
novocaine... Mar 07, 2008
your so pretty(ugly on the inside)
Friday, March 7, 2008 |
mirrors crack
think there talking behind your back
all eyes are on you
mimicing what they show you
your lives disguised by magazines
gotta get thinner to stay in the scene
when alls dead and gone
you'll be living on empty dreams
too vain to see you've lost
your lost in a sea of broken teeth
self image
is all important to get a head
in a world where you just need to be pretty
or a slut to survive
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help me mommy for I am hereyour child unborn but I...
AWOG Jul 04, 2008
Friday, July 4, 2008 |
help me mommy for I am here
your child unborn but I can hear,
all the stress that you bear
is weakening me as i start to tear
I hear walking from here to there
but what do I feel
mommy your bleeding now
and i am inside
What has happened on the outside
Help me mommy I can't breathe
what is happening to me
I am losing oxygen
mommy I want to grow up
and have toys
I want to see your face
I c...1 Recommendation4 Comments -
In Flanders Fields by John McCrae, May 1915...
unlovedde... May 15, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008 |
In Flanders Fields
by John McCrae, May 1915
In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.
We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders fields.
Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing han...1 Recommendation4 Comments -
We cannot see her at first. The shadows hide her, ...
Frumpologist Mar 16, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
We cannot see her at first. The shadows hide her, make us blind to her. It isn't until a soft sniffle comes from the corner of the room that we finally know she's there, huddled in the dark with her knees up to her chest. Crying. Crying so quietly, it seems wrong to be imposing. We know that she doesn't want to be heard. She is scared of us, scared of them. She is afraid of everyone n...2 Recommendations3 Comments -
I am doing okay today. I woke up sober and it felt...
Danigirl35 Feb 28, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008 |
I am doing okay today. I woke up sober and it felt wonderful. I just don't feel like doing anything today.
The bills can wait, the dusting can wait, I just want to take a bubble bath and let my cares go away. Ever have one of those days? A day you just want to veg or sit outside and take in the weather? It's supposed to be 80 degrees outside today, there is a light breeze and the bird...1 Recommendation4 Comments -
i cant stop walking because every time i stopi fal...
novocaine... Jul 09, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008 |
i cant stop walking
because every time i stop
i fall down on my face
you allways dream about nothing
your worlds small enough to steal
i've been dreaming about ruining my insides
just to wait something new
a breath of fresh air
to these dried up lungs
my last breaths for myself
you cant stop complaining
the worlds too scary right now
how can i dream when im scared of myself??
i just struggle with the wor...1 Recommendation3 Comments -
when did it start to be wrong to believe in yourse...
novocaine... Jun 30, 2008
the way the fire started the way the fire finished
Monday, June 30, 2008 |
when did it start to be
wrong to believe in yourself??
all alone wishing you were somewhere else
where you felt needed by everyone
this is how we start to become
nothing more than sycophants
we hide behind meanings
screaming gimme one more chance pretty please
i'll say everything that you need to(hear)
i lost all faith in you
the day that the fire inside your heart
turnt to ash
where did you go??
i feel...1 Recommendation3 Comments
Saturday, March 29, 2008
a long day!!!
a long day of misery,
a long day of pain,
a long day of heartache,
things will never be the same,
a long day of questions,
a long day with no answers,
a long day of whatevers,
damn i ran out of chances,
a long day trying to make things right,
a long day trying to get through,
a long day trying to make things better,
trying to work out what the hell to do,
a long day thinking things over,
a ...2 Recommendations12 Comments -
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