Pet Bereavement Support Group

I am soooo sorry to hear that you had to put your puppy to sleep. That is awful. One of my puppies was very sick recently and they thought that it was parvo and I remember how devastated I was.....that puppy is doing much better now, however my older dog passed away this month. It is so hard dealing with that I definitely have a ton of guilt around his passing and can relate to your feeling of lost joy in anything. I can tell you that initially I thought that I would never be able to get through the grief, but thankfully each day does get a little better. It's not that you miss them any less....you just try to take meaning from the experience and move forward. I am sure that even in his short time here that your puppy touched your heart and brought much laughter to your home. and that is hard to let go of. Sometimes it feels like we can not comfot ourselves let alone others.....for me just being part of this site was a huge step and has helped me heal in ways that I could not have alone. I am sure that as you continue to connect with others and move forward that you will be able to better comfort your boyfriend as well. This stuff is really hard to face and the fact that he did not choose to sit through the euthanasia is only reflective of how much he could not fathom saying goodbye to something he loved so much. We all grieve differently and thats why it is so important for us to support eachother.....so we don't have to be strong all the time....we can take turns.

aww, i am so sorry for your loss, it is one of the hardest decisions to make, having to let them go..

It sounds as if a couple of weeks would not have made any difference, hon, so please try not to feel so guilty. I am so sorry for your loss.

Thank you for your support. I have hoped that now, 9 days later, things would begin to get easier, but as it turns out I have had to deal with incompetence, ignorance and heartlessness with every turn I make. The day before he died, my boyfriend and I had taken him to the vet where she gave him vaccinations she never should have given him because he was showing signs of sickness and fever. I know the outcome would have been no different, we still would have had to say goodbye, but I know it made his last day more painful and made his poor little body even more sore.
We then learned that that vet had written in our chart that my boyfriend and I had chosen to vaccinate against her recommendation. What kind of people would do such a thing? If I had known, I never would have done it, but she didn't even give us a choice. In response to this stab in the heart, the owner of the vet clinic agreed to pay for my sweet boy's cremation.
When he went to the emergency clinic where he was put to sleep two days later, he found they they had forgotten to tag his body "hold for owner' and they had already disposed of him, without a call to me to tell me they were going to or that they did. When I learned that nothing of him remained, I lost it. I had been grieving the loss of his spirit but now I had nothing to hold on to. The plans I had for his cremains are now for naught. In addition, the owners of the emergency clinic show no remorse for there actions. How can you be involved in an industry that is supposed to save the lives of animals, and be so heartless?
The financial strain for all of this is only compounding my worries. The weekend's events ran about $700. I would pay anything for my little man, but that so much of it was supporting these horrible practitioners and their negligent practices makes me sick with grief.
I just look at pictures and videos of him all day and try to remember all the good we did for each other, but I don't understand why every part of this process has just brought more heartache, wasn't losing him enough?

I am so sorry for your loss. What a young age to loose your puppy. I've lost a puppy to parvo previously and felt guilt as well. My thoughts are with you both.