Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Because of the inflexibility and pervasivenes...
|
Youth-So many options >Now- So few choices
|
Watch this |
| View More Posts Ignore |
I am having a major Borderline moment! First of all I value all of my friends here who are willing to be my friend. This is not the friendship I am going to be referring to.
When I was younger and had different borderline traits, let's say party traits, I had so many options. I had so many friends, so many men, so many options. The world was wide open and so was I. I could do anything, have anyone, achieve it all. If I lost someone, so what, always someone else to step in. Now that I am older, married (faithful), with children, no longer wild, I have so few choices. Beyond the friends I have on this site I have zero in real life. Okay for one I am married, I gained weight, and I started to realize my heart was breaking a few times when friendships don't last forever. Now I am scared of friendships in the real world. I am not only scared, but I am incapable of making or keeping friends in the real world. People always tell me, you are a lovely caring person, I'm sure you have tons of friends, but I don't. I have come to the point where I am scared to death of make friends, to trust ANYONE! I am giving up. These thoughts are even starting to spread to this site. I value you guys, you all are the reason I am still here, but I am becoming afraid to get to close to anyone. When I mean too close I mean at all. What have I become? I don't want to be a hermit, but I'm afraid not to be. PREPARE FOR EVIL COMMENT! I'm just tired. I wish my husband and children were enough, but they just don't feel like enough. I feel blessed to have them. I feel blessed to have a good husband and great children. I love the time I spend with them, but they are not enough. Try talking to a three year old about politics. Tell your husband about some hot dream you had that didn't involve him. You get the point hopefully. You may not agree with me, but you know what I am saying. I know someone is going to say, count your blessings, I have less. I do count my blessings, but I want more. I want someone in the world that is within an arms reach to give a damn about me that doesn't have to. Someone who hasn't stood before God promising til death do us part, someone who I didn't birth. I just want someone to care. BUT, I dont', I don't want them to care because I'm too scared now. I'm too scared to trust. I dont' trust that anyone will stick by me for more than a minute. Do I have problems or what? Posted on 12/13/07, 08:12 pm |
| 5 Replies | Add Your Reply |
| View More Posts Ignore |
hi i am the same i cant get close and i cant trust i thenk we do have a problem but with me eny way its just who we are but i do thenk it we need help i dont know how to get it yet but we will work it out. i am here 4 you if you need a friend 
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
i have pretty bad trust issues too, but apparently thats just a side effect of my paranoia
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
I'm Borderline as well, and I know making friends can be hard. I used to be real social when I was younger, but when I switched schools I stopped doing that... Middle and High school were hell... I started displaying BPD traits real early and real severe. I have two people as firends, one from high school, one's my bf's roomie. I keep in touch with other people that I used to know, ex's mostly, and one or two people that I partied with when I would go out and be reckless... But really it is very hard... So much rejection to deal with... Don't worry... you'll be okay. I'm here, and if I'm not enough, there's a whole website here!
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
Yeah, I had plenty of friends back when I partied hard and had the look to match.
Now, I've let my looks go. I even shaved my head. It's funny when people compliment it. They don't realize I was having a moment.
|
|
|
|
||
| View More Posts Ignore |
Well from the picture, it actually suits you quite well. ^_^
|
|
|
|
||
Many resources I've found on bpd suggest that people with this type of personality disorder are often abusive, …
I had a psych evaluation done last month, and with it came the psychologist's conclusion that I am not bipolar, which I …
i have posted on here once about my mixed personality disorder and if anyone knew what it meant. No one really knew or …
