Panic Attacks Support Group

This is a little long, but maybe it will give some of you a sense of hope.

We are always posting for help, and the horrible things we go thru, so today I just want to share w/ you all something positive. So, if you have read my previous posts, you know that i have been struggling w/ driving the past month or so. It has been so bad that my parents have been driving me back and forth to work. Well, the deal was that I HAD to drive myself today. So i have done research on driving w/ fear, and support from this site.

Well when i woke up this morning, i was paralyzed w/ fear. I was sick in the bathroom, and shaking all over to the point where my legs could barely carry my weight. i was convinced that i would NOT be able to do it. So I took my klonopin a little later then usual. When it was time to leave, i sat in my car for 5 minutes and did my breathing. I drove a half a mile to the deli to get my DECAF coffee. Still shaking, I got back in the car, and drove 2 miles to a shopping strip. I pulled in the parking lot to re-group. By then I already felt slightly better... (thanks to the person on here who told me to set goals for myself along the way) When i was ready, i ketp going. I have 2 trouble spots that get backed up and i fear them. With the help of my breathing excercises, prayer, and what people say about "pushing through," i did just that. When i was stuck in that intersection, I just thought to myself, "I have made it this far. I am NOT going to die, I AM anxious, but it's under control." the next thing i know, i am thru that area, and 2 miles from work.

I feel SO proud of myself today! I feel like there really IS a light at the end of this tunnel. I don't mean to preach, but we HAVE to learn to trust in ourselves, and that WE are in control of our bodies. they are not in control of us! thanks to all of you who gave me great advice. I used it all :)
Posted on 05/13/08, 09:05 am