Marijuana Addiction & Recovery Support Group

...2 months ago I was a drug dealer, now I am a substitute teacher
...I have a clear mind
...I can remember where I put things also
...I try to get pulled over lol
...actually proud of myself for a change
...better relationship with my best friend and family

I'm proud of you new life...

I remember when I last had time off from smoking,
• I didn't doubt everything I said and had confidence in my opinion
• Breathing felt magical
• I could go out and socialize without having to worry that my bong was "all alone" at home and rushing back home to smoke up
• I realised what a great life I had

*I keep my appointments instead of smoking and forgetting about them
*I can hold a conversation without people looking at me funny
*I don't eat even A QUARTER as much
*I don't have to keep my kids locked out of my bedroom
*My kids like talking to me/spending time with me
*The house is A WHOLE LOT cleaner
*I don't have to worry about going back to jail again.

-i feel better about myself
-more money
-i know i wont get arrested for driving around and smoking
-remember a lot more things
-i feel like im in control of myself
-i spend more time with the people that matter the most to me

Dude, you were a dealer? dam son, that's kinda low isn't it?
You know, I have this inner mantra, it's called heal and grow (heal and grow! heal and grow!). Not to be patronising, but perhaps you should have a long think about that, yea?

-I'm finally able to step back and see things from a different perspective.
-I can analyze my past behaviour, my current behaviour and the behaviours of others.
-I can organize my thoughts and formulate opinions and theories.
-I have a much better relationship with friends and families.
-I have a better reputation.
-I graduated high school and went to college.
-I'm begining to see who I am now and am starting to becoming to person who I wanted to be. But I still crave that identity I had with drugs. The familiarity. The confidence. I established myself in an alternate reality and became comfortable with that person. More often or not I want to be that person again, I liked who I was but I realize that that was no existence.

Yea, your doing so god dam well you have to write it down repeatedly to remind yourself hugh? man, how you really doing? you dying for a smoke right? it's OK to admit that you know...

Hey msrd7-
Mate r u ok?
It seems to me like you r going through a lot of shit or something? Im not trying to be offensive but perhaps you should be the one to chill out and take a look at yourself and what you want before you say things on this site that might put other people down. Its ok to admit that ur an addict and that u might just need some support in getting out of the habit.
I know what some ppl r going thru, i became a bit of a drug dealer, have stopped that now, and now im sitting here with a blunt all skinned up and i know that i shouldnt have it and that i dont NEED it. And i give respect to ppl that r trying t help themselves. Give people more respect man and try realising what you want?
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Absolutely.. my bad

Nothing creatively brilliant to add. I still smoke. Just wanted to say that the entire discussion has been very encouraging. I want to to quit. I want a better life for myself. I want to say thanks for all contributions. :)