I dont know if anyone has been through this but...my ex and I hangout ocassionally. We do things, Im not a slut. I dont let every girl I see into my pants. Its just I feel inlove with her and I try to find anyway to be with her. I just dont understand how she can be intimate with me but tell me she's not ready for a girlfriend. It just seems like she only wants me around when she needs satisfaction. Its like Im her plaything and nothing more, but I cant just say enough is enough b/c i love her. I would give up all the breath in my body for her. She's the only one who gives me butterflies. When we kiss I swear there's fireworks. I cant go one night without dreaming of her. I dream and can feel her warmth, when I wake its heartbreaking b/c she isnt there. Im so sick of
crying over her..but a life with her in any form is unliveable. So I guess Im asking for advice. Im at a loss either way. Deep down I know she may never choose me. Shes bi....I cant help but feel that a guy could give her so much than I can. With me her mom wont accept her. With me she'll encounter descrimination. I just wish she knew that with me...she wouldnt have to worry about someone not loving her b/c I do with every ounce of my heart and soul.
Posted on 07/02/08, 04:07 pm
Wow well I have to admit you hit home with this one. You and I seem to have walked very similar paths. By no means darlin are you simply the play thing! However there will come a time when you need to choose between yourself and your needs or the path your on with her. Letting her go will be difficult I wont lie to you there but it may be for the best. Sounds to me though she would be crazy not to be with you. 
