Infidelity Support Group

Please hang in there. Things will get better. The therapist will help and then when you get back on meds you will start to feel a lot better.

I'm just not sure things will get better... I can go to marriage counseling all I want.. but things won't get better if he doesn't care. I told my husband I've been feeling suicidal.. and without my meds and with everything i'm dealing with, he knows it's a very real threat.. and he just got angry... saying "well what do you want me to do about it?"

the meds help.. but they don't fix everything.. they can't fix my marriage and they can't fix him. i'm thinking that when i see the therapist i'll get a new Rx and I still have an old bottle with one refill left.. i can get both filled and take all of them. I can do it at night so that my husband will be asleep and won't know anything till morning. I think it's a pretty solid plan.

You CANNOT do this to your son. He needs you. Leave the SOB but do not leave your son. Call a suicide hotline or go to the hospital please.

I'm a complete mess... I can't hold a job because of panic attacks and depression.. I get so depressed at times that I just lay in bed all day... i sleep till noon because i can't get to sleep until five in the morning.. do you really think i could be a single mother? Do you think he needs that? i know it's selfish.. i know it makes me a horrible person because i know if i kill myself it'll screw him up.. but it doesn't stop me from wanting it because all i've ever wanted was to be happy and to have someone love me and all i see for the rest of my life is misery and pain. And it's not only my H either... even without him I'll be miserable and depressed.. because that's just the nature of my mental illness.

there's got to be something wrong with me that no one can love me. everyone cheats on me. everyone uses me.

I know it feels as if you will never have anything but pain and misery again, but that just isn't so hlks. Hang in there a little bit longer, for your son and for yourself. Do you really want to give the SOB the satisfaction of knowing how badly he hurt you? Call your therapist ASAP instead.

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I can't help but think that deep down taking those pills is not what you want. You are asking for help and you are reaching out for help.

So listen to whatever is telling you to find help and do that. I don't want to sit here and tell you that you should just leave your H and you will be better off without him because I don't know your whole situation. But from the few words we have had and from the posts that I have seen from you, you seem to be a loving and caring person. Knowing that I can only believe that there is something good out there for you. If your husband is so caught up in himself that he can't see your pain then maybe he is not the person who can make you happy. But you do deserve to be happy and when things are right in your world, I believe you can be happy no matter what your illness is. I do believe in mind, body, and spirit connection and if even one of those things are off then it throws everything off.

There are people on this site who care about you and we don't even really know you. You have touched us in some way with your words or your kind thoughts and it has brought us a smile or some kind of peace. You are a good person and you deserve better than what you have right now and I do believe in Karma and I do believe that you will have your happiness.

Hold on and wait for it; it is coming. And if you need just one reason to not take those pills let your son be the reason. Turn to your son and look at all of the wonderful things about him. See life through his eyes and see all that is good. Think of all that you will miss from him and he will miss from you. He needs you!

If you need two reasons, use us. We would be devastated if you hurt yourself. As I said there are people here who truly care about you and what happens to you.

Call your therapist and let them do whatever needs to be done to help you.

You CAN be a single mother. If I can do it, anyone can. I know how difficult this is. I have been there (4 months ago). And it is hard, but as time goes by, things get easier. You will begin to feel a little better every day. Are you seeing a therapist? You should. At least once a week (maybe more). That has helped me a lot. Back to the single mother thing: I know how hard it feels now, but I am raising my 10 month old daughter on my own and now that some time has gone by, I am feeling empowered and stronger. You will be ok. You can do this. Do it for your son. And hang in there... time is biggest help in all of this. Take it one day at a time. :)

When the world has pushed you to your knees, your in the perfect position to PRAY! Turn it over to Jesus. He will give you no more then you can handle. He has a plan for you, and he will reveal it to you! You just have to have faith!

I'm not calling anyone and I'm not going to the hospital. I've been in a psych ward and I'll do everything possible to never go back. My son will be okay with my husband.. my husband doesn't abuse anyone but me. He ALWAYS treated his whore way better than he EVER treated me. He didn't even treat me that well when we were dating! Being a single mother is hard... being a single mother with as much wrong with me as I have is just impossible. But you know what? None of you have to worry... cause as much as I want to kill myself.. I won't... because I'm a coward. I had my chance after the affair when I took a bottle of my meds.. then I chickened out.. I got scared and made myself throw up. I just wish I hadn't... at least, if i'd have killed myself then, my husband and his whore may have felt some amount of guilt. They could have suffered just a little... But now no one suffers but me. Sometimes I wish I did believe in god.. it would be a lot easier to have someone to pin this on.. but fortunately and unfortunately I'm a devout atheist. Don't worry.. I'msure I have years and years of misery left

I really hope your feelings will pass or at least ease up. You sound just like I feel sometimes, but luckily it passes.
The best way for you to get back at him, is for you to be fine without him.