Infidelity Support Group

Well, I've managed to lose who I thought was two of my best friends, long story short I was just being used. Just like my marriage. Man I wish I knew what it was that seems to scream to people "screw this guy over?" I'm really getting frustrated with trying to get my life back in order, I've lost my job, I'm holding onto a marriage that died last year when I found out about her cheating. And now it seems the best place for me is in a dark cave somewhere. I try to be a good person, but somehow I only attract people that want things from me. I stopped smoking pot, so lost pretty much all my friends there too, which good as I know it is for me, just sucks when I feel all alone, even in a crowd. I will say though, today was kinda cool, I've really been withdrawn, so I went and played disc golf by myself (as usual), and ended up helping a couple other guys find a lost disc, ended up playing the rest of the course with them. Even though I am not so good, just started playing, they were cool and showed me a few pointers. So I THINK I can still make friends, but I don't really want to. If that makes sense - I don't mind superficial friendships anymore, much easier to be a friend for a few minutes, or while standing in line, sitting at the bar, just as long as that's it. Sucks, life is boring without friends, but hey, I guess I won't get stepped on anymore. Funny I say that now, the first thing I made my mind up about when I found out was NO ONE was going to get one on me anymore... Seems that's all it's been. Am I the only one that is instant looser after being cheated on???
Posted on 06/25/08, 05:06 pm