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On Meth, still dabbling, need routine!
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I am on 100mls Methadone daily. I am still having a chase now and then, and alot of it comes down to boredom!! I started using heroin when I was 15, I stopped injecting 5 years ago.
I've no structure to my days. Apart from rushing to the chemist each evening @ 7:30, just before closing! to get my daily pick-up of meth.
My son starts school on Monday, and I am shit scared that my lack of routine will impact on his first years in school. I really don't want that.
I buy my gear in amounts and get really anxious when the bag starts running low.
I also take 20mgs valium @ night. Me and my partner do the occassional gram of coke, then its automatically assumed we will use heroin afterwards. We've said no more coke as we know what it leads to. We know we can stop using together. We've done it before. We are very much in love. We support each other and communicate about everything. We have a beautiful home, nice car, lovely family unit and we are happy.
Using affects the entire day. It has a knock-on effect......, Going to bed late, struggling to get up for work then having to rush around getting ready to go out etc. Not eating at set times throughout the day, all these things, as hard as it is for me to admit, do affect my son. We are renoun for our poor time-keeping by our family and friends, who thankfully joke about it.
But it is not a joke, we are both very capable people. We know what we need to do, but we just can't seem to make that initial step.
It's like catch 22. we've no routine so we do what we know.......Use. And because of our using we're unable to establish and substain any kind of routine!! Any Advice from anyone with experience please? Need Routine for all our sakes.
Posted on 09/05/07, 12:09 pm
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Reply #1 - 09/05/07  1:02pm
" you and your partner need to sit down and lay out some ground rules, i dont condone your partying but if you must try to limit your use to thins like weekeneds only or once a month when you have a sitter for your son. children see more than we think so be careful, you don't want him in your situation when hes older do you? "
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Reply #2 - 06/08/08  4:42pm
" stop buying in bulk! then you won't get anxious whenit's going. it's all your head. here's my advie. buy one bag each. do it and say goodbye. get rid of all using equiptment eg. foil etc ritulaisation is a big part of any drug use but particularly smack or crack. breath in the last and as you do promise yourself and each other that is goodbye to it for good. marlboro's right kids do see more than we think and when my son had a drugs talk in school recently and when he came home and told me he was the only kid in class that could name every drug and what thry did and looked like i cried for days. i've been clean of heroin for 4 years and crack for 2 now but have only recently regained custody of leon after 7 years of him living with my parents. please don't go the same route i did. i'm married with another kid now and with the support of them and my methadone script i can now lead a normal life. beleive me it is really hard at first but with determination and the support of my family i'd now rather die than live another day addicted to street drugs. be the parents your son deserves because i'm telling you from my own experience they grow up fast and you can't turn the clock back. good luck x "
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Reply #3 - 07/03/08  4:12pm
" hi ,i stil dabbled for about a year when i started methadone but i got bored/wanted cash again/noticed how awfull other addicts looked and the thought of what was cut in the drug topped it off,i developed damaged nerve symptoms and shit myself and stopped.you need to find your own personal reasons or awakenings to do it .xx "
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Reply #4 - 07/05/08  4:21pm
" Hmmmm...I was in a relationship & we went the Methadone route a few times & rarely stayed off of the other stuff. We would get kicked off for contiuing to shoot dope & go back to full blown using.
It is going to be virtually impossible to get 100% clean in a relationship based on using together in the past. I am not gonna pull any punches here with you & I am not a mean person either just a realistic one who has been there done that millions of times.
I know what u mean, when we were on meth we would go to the clinic, take our dose & fall into mischief out of sheer boredom & missing the high feeling. We had no "normal" activities together but drugs & doing things to get drugs.
I see you both work, what kind of jobs do you have?
That is a start.
How much spare money do you have? Do you have enough to go to watch a movie together one night/day a week? Go to eat? Go to a museum or another place of interest?
Do you ever rent movies at home or take walks in a park & take pictures? Go to a library or coffee house? What about taking your child out or is he too young to do activities like playgrounds & child places of interest?
You just need to replace bad thing IE:Drug use with good things IE:Go to the movies.
Easier said than done this I realize.
Alone it is easier than in a relationship. If one person is gung ho to get high & the other is not it can cause conflict & lets face it how many times did I talk him into getting high or him me? SO many I lost count!!
You need to remember this: You have a child & a home & a life & can easily lose it all due to this damned drug!
I was the picture of perfection except for Heroin & lost it all, my home, my money , my job, my daughter, my belongings, my sanity...
Dennis lost his life eventually..
Take it slowly my dear, take one night/day at a time to do a different thing together (aside from getting high)do anything different but keep away from drugs.
Cook together, play together, create together (we took pictures together), LIVE a REAL life together..You have so much to look forward to together..You are obviously smart, pretty, witty, charismatic, a loving mom, a caring spouse, you can kick ass... "
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