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I am not a user.. but my boyfriend of 6 years is.
He's been an addict for 4 years. I started noticing around then anyways. I never talk about his addiction much. My mom is a scientist .. she trys to prove how horrible drugs are everyday of her life. talking to her about it.. would be like talking to the priest about getting an abortion. and everyone else, i figured i already knew what they would say about it...that i should leave him.. but i am despretely in love with him. the truth is, his struggle is all i think about. lately, i'm finding that i'm losing touch because i've been so lost in my own thoughts about it.. for too long! my bf .. hes in rehab now. hes been there like all summer. he called me yesterday to tell me he is not sure we should speak anymore.. its because he doesnt think im helping.. i want to help.. and i think i know how to help.. but I am so hurt by him.. hes been lying, cheating, and stealing from me for years. that I feel dumbfounded. whenever he's relapsed in the past.. he blames it on me.. saying that my behavior caused him to relapse.. and i think that ..these comments of his.. is another reason.. i am so interverted about my feelings. he makes me feel that I am overly emotional. i don't want to slow his recovery .. i want him to be well. everyone around me.. they have wrote him off.. they quiver at the mention of his name. for me to speak of him would be taboo.. for me to be with him..would be shattering and horribly dramatized. but i love him still .. he is the only thing on my mind..i want to marry him and have a bunch of little hims. hes the only thing i really want or care about.. is there an answer? Posted on 07/24/08, 01:07 pm |
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Only if HE wants to get clean.Any questions fire away was on H for 13 years. 
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tough situation i'm sorry you have to go through it!
if he says you shouldnt speak anymore because it's not helping, i think you should just do what he asks. early recovery is such a hard process and often times being in a relationship is distracting and can cause unnessecary feelings. in early recovery he really should be concentrating on finding himself and getting healthier mentally physically and spiritually. i think you may find it a little beneficial for you too if you can have the right attitude towards it. take the time apart from him to seek counseling, face your feelings and talk about the problems you guys had with someone else you trust. take this time to find yourself and be happy with yourself. alanon is a very very good program. it's for the families and friends of alcoholics/addicts. the people there have similar situations and the same feelings and there you can find even more answers. he's a very sick person right now and going into a relationship with all the resentments both of you have would probably do more damage than it would good. and i'm only speaking from my own experience. and i can tell you that faith goes a long way in helping to recover from these problems and these feelings of being nothing without him. try to remember that if its meant to be then it will be. it may not happen right now but in the future it could. youre more than welcome to message me anytime you need to hun! hang in there & stay strong. this really is a positive thing.
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