Fibromyalgia (FM or FMS or Fibro) is a debilitating chronic syndrome (constellation of signs and symptoms) characterized by diffuse or specific muscle, joint, o...
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We don't seem to talk about this issue. I sit and feel guilty as if I am such a horrid person for not having any friends. I have not had any for so long I wonder if I am normal if I need therapy. Infact I have therapy and he told me that I was the most empathic and sensitive woman he had ever met and could not understand why I don't have friends.
Am I blaming myself too much, not giving some credit where credit is due? FMS steals our social life for those of us who have it severe. I've spent so many years with it I've come down to the level of taking a shower is a huge achievement for the day. I kid you not. I was better than this before my mother passed away because I worked for her and it kept me moving. I dont cry anyone Im numb. and I feel its time to leave my husband. The one man that loves me but has enabled me so much that I can barely do anything for myself now. I dont want to leave but I feel that if I am ever to get better and fight for my life which I need to do that I will only sink further until I die in my 50's. I've already had a dioc tell me I have the body of a 60yr old. I was mad but later I realized she was right and I was not doing my part. I succomb to the pain cycle..Oh dont do that it will cause this thing. My fears have grown so large they over come me trying. I have no support whatsoever in my life since mom is gone. My husband is like living iwith wallpaper and we have had no contact most of the marriage nor is there any conversation except yelling about bills. My kid are all gone and well...my doctor said, You need to completely start a new life. I AM SO SCARED SHITLESS I DONT EVEN LET MYSELF KNOW HOW MUCH I AM ...LMAO. Oooo would someone please just befriend me and if I dont come on for days yell at me, drag me....i know its alot to ask but I will do this for you as well. I am supportive and loving and caring. I need women around me and I prob just need to cry..o god i miss my mom my life died with her. I write poetry a lot to help the pain. sorry for going on and on................much love to all of you and my name is Susan.. Posted on 04/14/08, 01:04 am |
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As you can see, you are not alone. I feel the same way, today is really bad. It's the worst when I hurt really bad. I am like you, I have no friends. I can't get out, it hurts to walk. I have a man who works till night and my youngest daughter is mentally disabled and she goes to life skills during the day. So I'm left alone a lot. My oldest daughter is in NC. My middle child was killed in Afganistan, I miss him something terrible. Well anyway, what I'm trying to say is I would like to be friends. I'm a nice person, I love animals. I read and watch tv to pass the time. Now I'm rambling, I do that. I hope I make sence. My name is Denise from NE 
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Its something when you read a post and find out someones life is exactly like yours? Its like reading a book about your self. This illness forces one to distant her self from the World and sucks the life right out of her,me,us. I am sorry you suffer. I wish I had the Magic words we so desperately need.
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I understand EXACTLY what you are going through. People do get pretty wrapped up in their own world to even consider you.
Even people without children. I had a friend in person and on here who would do the jack in the box thing. Sometimes they wanna be close to you and other times they just run away...its like a mind game..they run when they want and come back when they want and expect you to be warm and loving. Then you have the fm thing on top of that. Then why dont we add a lil bit of racism to the pot shall we? I live in a town that does not tolerate other races very well to say the very least. I dont regret doing my emt schooling but I damn sure regret doing it in a small hateful town. And no, its not that easy to up and relocate with no money to do so.... I am however for the most part a loner. I was never the cool chick that everyone invited everywhere. So I was forced at a young age to learn how to be alone. However, when you get an illness something over takes you and you get more lonely than you have ever been in your life. Lets also add that most people online are NOT in the midwest so its not like a group of us girls can form what one of my friends has, she had a breakfast club. The girls go out so many times a month for girl time and breakfast..in the midwest honey your lucky to even have a walmart much less people who give a damn... The folks I did meet from here are many hours away from me... So trust me girlie, I know EXACTLY how you feel. However do not, I repeat do NOT lose your power. Do NOT allow your body to rule you and tell you what you are or are not gonna do that day. Swallow your pride and get a cane, or wheelchair or whatever and scoot around to the mall or wherever. Make it a point to do special things for you.. no one else can do that for you like you can. Once you give up going out even if it is by yourself you have lost almost everything, dont go there. I was depressed when I went to the mall one time, and came home feeling terrible bec I walked the entire mall. Then I decided to get a wheelchair and I do that just about every time. And honey chile, I am FAST in a wheelchair LOL! Dont rely on anyone to take care of your spirit you MUST get showered, put on your cool threads, put on some makeup, and watch out world, here comes Sassy Susan! In fact, I am giving you homework. I want you to go out this weekend even if its ALONE. You are a big girl you dont need no ones hand to go out.... I dont care if its only to go to the park and stare at blue jays all day, whatever its a start.I also expect you to message me with what you decided to do over the weekend. I aint playin with you young lady! much love, d
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