So my mom came home after being in jail/rehab for the last six monthes for the third time and i can already see nothings changed. She had been addicted to cocain,
marijuana and alcohol Which gave her the personality of a snake. I doubt shes started drugs again yet but she still has the personality of a drunk. Her mood has flipped and flopped in the small 72 hours shes been here. She's the one whose been on drugs the last 6 years and is bipolar and she had the nerve to say i need to be medicated. I have a full time job, have recently started college and am in a commited relationship and im satisfied with that, i think ive accomplished a lot, and before she got here things were fine. Ive lived with my grandparents so its been dull but better than being with her. Now she lives with us. I have to share a small part of my grandparents apartment with her and my sister and i feel like im loosing my mind. One minute she's fine and the next she's telling me im such a horrible person and i need help and yadahada and all i will have been doing is sitting down and watching the tv and she comes ranting and raving. SHE'S NUTS. Everyone agrees to that when they talk to me but when she's around they dont say shit like their scared. Its rediculous it like everyone is patronizing her and kissing her ass and looking at me crazy cuz i dont want to live like i used to have to. Ive become accostumed to living without her and it was better. Im not a partier, i dont drink and ive never gotten into trouble so its not like im being a spoiled brat. Ive given her so many chances i cant even count how many. And she steels from me even after i give her chances. I just want to go to work, go to
school, and wait for my boyfriend to come back from iraq cuz at this point he's the only one who seems to care about me even the slitest bit. without getting that small bit turned upside down all the damn time. And her mouth makes me cringe. Her and my little sister have motors for mouths so when she gets going she never stops. And the worst part is, its all lie!!! Sometimes i just look at her like do u really believe the crap coming out of ur mouth, then u really are insane. As if i told her to do drugs, alcohol, run away or dessert her family. That shit aignt my fault, i never did anything and yet im penalized for it, pretty ssoon im gonna have a mental breakdown. It happend two years ago and i ended up in the hospital because of HER and if this continues i can see it happening again!
Posted on 03/27/08, 01:03 pm
None of this is your fault!!! Please don't take it out on yourself. You probably already are predispositioned to depression....meds with counseling will help. Find another counselor because the first one didn't work...sometimes it takes several before you can click with someone. I don't understand why your grandparents are letting her live with you guys...Can you please talk to them and tell them how this is affecting you...maybe they can make other arrangements for her. You should not be subjected to her abuse..it's been ongoing and it's no at all fair to you. I see on a daily basis what a mentally ill and chemically dependent 'mother" can do to their children. I'm in a relationship with a man who has 3 kids with this kind of women. I feel sooo bad for the kids and so I totally understand where you are coming from. You are a good person....alanon will help you or even alateen...please look into that....the very best to you....
