Euthanasia (from Greek: "good death") refers to assisted dying. The assistance ends the life of a person or an animal in a painless or minimally painful way. Euthanasia is most oft...
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Someone called me a murderer. She didn't realize it, but she did.
I 'pulled the plug' for my mother 4 years ago (just four months after my stepfather died). She spent 33 days in the hospital being mutilated by the doctors there. A routine surgery turned into my worst nightmare. As long as I live, I'll never forget the way her body looked. She was tortured. I lost my job while Mom was in the hospital. My best friend of 20 years couldn't handle my constant bawling and ditched me soon after. I became a 'plague.' Wondering every second of every day if the person you love most in the world is going to live or die, does something to you. Watching someone take their last breath changes you forever. So I wandered around in a fog for 3 years. Crying and terrified the entire time. Who would be next? I decided to go back to school. Someplace to hide. Someplace where there wouldn't be too many questions. Someplace where I didn't really have to interact with others too intimately. Someplace where no one knew me. Then it happened. I was waiting for it I guess. A woman in one of my classes said to me, "I know what would have been a really good persuasive speech for this class...'pulling the plug'. I think it's wrong. It's murder! I mean, what if they could have lived even another day?" It took all I had not to shriek like a banshee and smack her. I never wanted to play God. I hated even squishing bugs, pro-lifer that I was. Now what am I? A murderer? A killer? What? I don't have one single person to relate to about all of this. The contents of my head used to spill freely onto whomever was in my vicinity. Now my mouth is shut and my thoughts closely guarded. A lesson painfully learned there. Whenever I did try to talk about it, I'd get the you're-a-freak look, including my therapist. She seemed genuinely mystified that I was still crying 2 years after the fact. The general grief category for me is like putting a band aid on a freshly severed limb. Nice try, but a tad bit inadequate. Anyone here know what I'm talking about? (also.. ever hear of something called cardiac cirrhosis?) Posted on 12/23/07, 05:12 pm |
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NO! You are not a murderer! Sometimes the best way to show someone how much you truly love them, is to let them go. My dad suffered so much with cancer. He did everything from chemo to radiation and surgery...nothing was going to help. All the pain and side effects of medication, procedures, etc. made my dad's life (if that's what you could call it) a living hell. But all we wanted was for him to fight and win. So he fought and suffered horribly. One day, just weeks before he died, he asked us to please let him go. No more drugs, radiation, chemo, just let him have his life back, and to leave it with some dignity. He insisted on a DNR order from the minute he found out he only had six months, but never told us. Didn't think we would agree. At the time, he was probably right. But now I see that he was the bravest of us all. I pray that my child will do for me what you did for your mother. I wish I could have done it for my dad, because that is what he would have wanted. 
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(((((hugs)))))
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hi there...unfortunatelty in life there r some things we should not discuss with others...and...this is only because they make US feel worse. i wonder did this same person ever have an abortion or have an anilmal put down....no one can cast a stone and 4 someone 2 judge like that,,well they r not worth wasting time thinking about.
people will hurt u if u r honest with them cause u know how most of society veiws this. i mean its terrible that we cannot discuss it openly and that u r made 2 feel like a freak...u r probably a very kind considerate thoughtful person but i think ur right..b descrete who u tell in order 2 protect ur feelings
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i live in australia where euthanasia is illegal i am also a nurse and think its wrong (now read this you start yelling at the computer) i think its wrong that we DONT have it here the painand the suffering i see in families is terible i have nursed people on there death bed on palitive care and its horrible you just wish for both them and there families it was over some people hang on for weeks and eventually starve to death cause there so weak they cant eat its horrible iam so FOR euthanasia and anyone who thinks otherwise should go work where i work in a palitive care hospital for a while it might change there minds
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no you are not a murderer... I would do the same thing if I was you!
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