Essential Tremor Support Group

stumbled on this website when I was trying to find some information on my son's sudden head tremor. (He is four.)



Before the head tremor thing happened, I always thought about getting a better job, earning more money. And I seldom spent time with my kids. (I also have a girl.) I took what I had for granted and wanted more. I kept on complaining about what I did not have and paid no attention to what I already had.



Now, the only thing I want is the disappearance of the head tremor. I don't want a better paid job or money or what. I pray to God sincerely and I have not done so for a long time. I am very worried about the progression of the disorder as not much is known about it. What if not only doesn't the tremor go away but it also moves to other body parts? What if it affects his social life and damage him psychologically in the future? Too many what-ifs. And the only thing I can do now is pray.



I keep on sinning deliberately. (Porno websites and dirty thought) And I strongly suspect that God is trying to knock on my door and remind me of my sins with undesirable situations. Months ago, my son developed some pimple-like skin allergy on his face and body, which seriously affected his appearance. I was so frustrated and prayed to God to cure him. Miracles do happen. Even though the doctor told us to consult the professionals, the allergy disappeared immediately the next day. And I mean disappearing altogether overnight. It was a miracle. But when the bad situation was gone, I started to take the miracle for granted and kept on sinning, forgetting how sincerely I had prayed to God when I wanted His help. And this time, God comes with something more serious. And I believe that He will also come with a miracle more wonderful. I publicly pray to God: Please relieve my son of his illness and make us useful to You. Amen.



Before ending this journal, I would like to share another miracle that happened in my family. My parents-in-law and my daughter (she was then two) experienced a very serious traffic accident when my father-in-law was driving on the highway at around 80-100km/hr. Because there was not enough lighting and my father-in-law could not have expected a large rock in the middle of the road, the car crashed into the rock and was seriously damaged to the extent that the insurance company had to pay for buying another car instead of fixing the car. Maybe my father-in-law stepped on the brake on time or may be because of the airbag, no one was hurt. I mean no one was even scratched or had a broken rib or at least some condition that required medical attention. Nothing happened at all except for the seriously deformed car. What is it if it's not a miracle? But as always, I thanked God for one or two minutes and then went on doing thing my sinful way.



But at least there is one thing that I am sure of: God still cares about my sin. I am happy that He does care and does not abandon me.
Posted on 04/28/08, 10:04 am