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Reply #1 -
11/13/06
2:16pm
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While I can't make a diagnosis on-line, you sound as if you are already aware that you have an eating disorder. Eating disorders are a real mental health diagnosis and not one that should elicit anger from those who care about you. Please talk to a professional and get help ASAP. Your body and your health - in fact your very life - may be in danger. This is not something to be ashamed about but something that you truly need help to resolve. 
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Reply #2 -
11/25/06
9:37pm
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I have tried to get help, I tried to talk to my therapist when i went to her last summer but she never cared about it.. Maybe she didnt understand how it really was.. I was throwing up alot more then then I do now.. and like 20 times a day I was on the scale or infront of the mirror.. I was totally obsessed.. I still am.. I KNOW somehting is wrong but I cant seem to do anything about it.. or I'm sure I can but I dont knwo how. And i CANT talk to anyone in my family about it, they will only make it worse.. my M knows but he is the only one too and he doesnt know everything either since he is gone all day long..
Sometimes I wish I could eat sleeping pill all day long so I dont have to get up and feel hungry , or feel anything..
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Reply #3 -
12/05/06
11:35am
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Maybe you should try and go to Greysheet -- it is a great place where you can annonymously go and vent your feelings about your weight. The program that they have orks really well, it relies on " abstinence -- eat no matter what" Meaning that you need ot eat three meals a day (from the greysheet).
With the control of hte program and the groups (there are also phone meetings every night) I was able to begin controlling my body and the way I fele inside.
Eating disorders are about control -- and having control over yourself and your body and what you eat is a very powerful thing.
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Reply #4 -
12/12/06
5:22pm
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Most people that have an eating dissorder eat too much or eat too fatning things or throw up what they do eat. And some people have anorexia. I dont think that is my case...but you see i do know i have a problem. What it is...who knows. I do know that when ever i get emotional( anything and everything but happy) I dont eat. Sometimes all day. Even when i am happy, or when I'm just loney perhaps...I dont eat. Some pople do the opposite and eat as comfort. But I choose to not eat. I dont want to unless im happy. The hunger pains dont bother me anymore. I've gotten used to them. In the recent past week or so, my appetite is getting somewhat better. But there are still times when i do( well, dont.) Is this just part of my depression? or do i have a seperate eating problem?
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Reply #5 -
12/14/06
3:08pm
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I laugh at myself cause someone will ask me what kind of eating disorder i have and i end up saying..im a binarexic. A combonation between a binge eater and a person who doesnt eat at all. I have struggled with an eating disorder since i was in the 8th grade. i always felt bigger then the other girls, and i wanted to be thin like them. things began to spril from there. somedays i wouldnt eat at all...others i would eat a small amount. then there were days where i just ATE like there was no tomorrow. then the cycle would continue. I eat alot when I'm upset and bored. Otherwise i almost "forget" to eat.
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Reply #6 -
12/18/06
3:11am
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It is important to understand that your thoughts are not unusual and many other people have been there and are there including myself. I have been working very hard to overcome my eating obsession and it is so hard, but the only way to start helping yourself. Definitly a great step to get on here and talk to people, even if it is anonymous and don't blame yourself for how you feel. Take things one step at a time and try to focus on other things, as hard as that may be. The thing that has helped me the most is communicating about the problem and thinking about what I am feeling as I am about to binge and as I'm binging, at times. If you need to talk, there are so many people out there that are right there with you. Be possitive and hopeful, because the food doesn't have to control you if you try to help yourself and not get discouraged.
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Reply #7 -
12/21/06
2:08am
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I feel weird. All these people keep talking about binge eating...but im past that point. I dont do that..as much. Now i just dont almost at all(eat). Unless im around people. Cause I dont want them to say something. When i do eat, Its just enough.Most of the time when i am alone, i juust snack...or eat junk food. I eat by myself a lot though.Im alone a lot too. So i have a lot of control over what i do and eat, or dont eat.And i dont think im fat. Im not strugling with my weight. I look in the mirror a lot, but im Not discusted. Im not positive on why i make the decision i do...I just do.And most of the time they seem to make me slightly happy...er...ish lol
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Reply #8 -
12/22/06
3:16am
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I know exactly how you feel! I have lost sixty some odd pounds and still feel fat and bloated. Yesterday a girl told me that I was "super skinny" and my first thought was that she was blind. I started thinking about my problem areas-everything from my chin down and went back to the gym-I had already spent most of the morning at the gym. How is it possible to wear a size two and feel like a whale?
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Reply #9 -
02/09/07
9:57am
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I see you posted this months ago but I wanted to respond anyway. I had the same reaction from a therapist before and it's not that they don't care. It's that your therapist didn't know what to do. It sounds like you have a great deal going on. It also sounds like maybe it's connected to your bipolar disorder? Or vice versus? If I could tell you anything that is doable and doable--throw away your scale and cover your mirror. It is liberating. It isn't helping you!! Good luck.
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