Clinical depression is a state of sadness or melancholia that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living....
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I really need help. I haven't felt like this in years. I used to have serious depression years ago. Lately ive been feeling it once again after years of avoiding it, only it feels 1,000,000 times stronger then it ever has. Im tired of hearing, dont do it, dont do it. I have no friends, and the people i have known my whole life dont treat me like a friend and i feel like i dont even know how. I just recently quit my job cause it was too damn stressful and thats part of what got me back into thinking the way i do. I usually play video games to take the pain away but i try to play them and im still in the thought process that i am now. Ive tried everything i can possibly do. I just want to die, i want it more then anything in the world. Call it selfish but people are selfish if they deny me what i am wanting so bad. Its like when a young kid wants his first family pet, i want to die that bad. Every few minutes i have this flash in my head on how i could die. I cant sleep cause of these flashes and its 3 a.m. in the morning. My friend was suppose to hang out with me but he wasnt answering my phone calls after he said we were going to. Im a virgin by choice and im always made fun of because of it. people think im gay in which makes it worse cause im not. I feel like taking 20 of these Tylonol P.Ms and drinking this E & J and just slowly fading away.
Posted on 07/04/08, 05:07 am |
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Hi, Nick. I can understand what you're saying.
Taking those pills and drinking will most likely put you in the hospital with painful liver damage. More importantly, you should try some other things before you hurt yourself. Quit worrying about what other people say or do right now, and take care of yourself. If you have to, call a help line or go to the hospital. You've seen before that it can go away, you just have to fight it now. If it takes a phone call or trip to the hospital, that's what you have to do. 
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you should try playing more video games. my halo 3 addiction helps get me through the day.... what games do you play ?
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HI NICK,
depression makes you feel as though you have no friends when actually you do, remember that sucide is a permant answer to a temporary crisis, I to suffer this way alot and if we can just make if through without doing anything stupid...and hold on a little longer somewhere down the road it does get a bit better. You have friends even one's who don't know you but care enough to reach out to you this way. Just remember it is a final answer to a temporary question. You are strong reach out and get some help. Some in patient hospital stays can offer the best counseling and you can meet people the same as us... You are never alone.
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Hi Nick,
Note J4A's advice. Spot on. Get help. The only clue you actually give here is the sex issue. Is that the problem mate? If so then peer pressure is indeed overwhelming and simply demonstrates the worst of the human race's actions. Mob mentality. Disgusting. Could I suggest you write a bit more on your profile so people have a chance of helping you in future? It really does say to others what is going on for you and why. Best Peg
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Hang on Nick. What everyone has said is right on. You are familiar with depression, and that is what this is. You can cope with it and win out over it. Whether you are a virgin or not is no one's business. I would recommend not publicizing it, .. only because it's no one's business, in my opinion. To us, OK,.. as it is an issue for you, .. but generally, not important enough to mention one way or another, in my opinion. You need professional help to win over depression. You probably know that. How is it going in that department? Don't harm yourself, it is much easier to treat it than to harm yourself, .. with injury or death. Neither is necessary or wise.
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What everyone has said is true nick. You should perhaps seek inpatient treatment. I was where you are now only a short time ago. I was hospitalized by the crisis team. It really did help. Was able to discuss things in group sessions with people who understood and cared. Was released on July 3. Now being treated with medication. At least I have a window of hope now where I had none before.
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Hi Nick
I know exactly how you are feeling I wanted to die everday the feeling is awfull and I planned what to do ,I went to my doctor and told them how I felt they sent me to counselling and I am on a high dose of medication and have to check in with my doctor every 2 weeks this support has really helped me please dont just fade away there is lots of help and support for you and you will get there little by little .
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