Depression Support Group

well, it's a very good step that you have posted here on the depression forum.

There is no giving up! that's what I say, ....And I am a person who has been suicidal.

Try to think of good things, positive things. there are small, good things in everyone's life.

PM me if you want to. (((((hugs)))))

I had suicidal thoughts and have tried it before myself. But it just seem like I couldn't get the nerve to totally killed myself. I have given up in life but there are always a reason why I need to stay. I don't want to hurt anyone else by doing it. So i abuse myself and that didn't helped either. I just feel that I want to feel that I do exist. I want to feel that i am living. I am so scared that something is going to happen in my life and death is my only option too. I want to tell you I really do care. And I want to get over this thought and live my life strong and free. I want to find my happiness again.

I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time. Depression is just so relentless. Our brains create pathways that are well worn - I call them "mind ruts". When I start getting down/depressed, my thoughts automatically go to suicide. Its a mind rut. But its the brains way of finding a way out of the pain. But there are other ways.

I've been reading a book called "The Mindful Way Through Depression". Mindfulness actally helps create new neuropathways in the brain. I've found this to be really helpful.

Please be gentle with yourself. (((HUG)))

Depression is hard. It has been hard for me when I get those thoughts. With therapy, I am hoping being able to chat with others that have the same thoughts help me get through them. Try not to give into those thought. Given up, is not a option.

Suicidal thought are so hard to deal with and it makes it so hard to function in life. all you think about is plans to kill myself. sometimes you have to find a distraction to help you get away from the negative thoughts.

Try to find a distraction when these feelings come thats how i deal with it. It could be anything from calling a friend, to watching a tv programme. Mine is to get my camera out and take pictures of beautiful things. If you ever feel you need to talk you know i am here xxx

I think in these past few months of trying to stay positive I've been forgetting or denying the side of me that can get really depressed. Because of it, I tend to forget how to cope with such feelings and am unprepared what it does to me. Then those thoughts of wondering if I'm worthy to stay alive start to creep and then I get anxious. Soon, I become antisocial and don't want to be with people, even how lonely I can get,. I guess I don't want others to get awkward around me or bring them down with my depression.

There are thoughts and feelings I know that trigger my depression and without having a really open minded person to talk about them, I can understand the feeling that one would want to hurt oneself. I recall after being hospitalized during my first year of being diagnosed bipolar, being at home and not wanting to go near anything sharp like a knife. I really feared that I would kill myself. I feel like crying now just thinking about it.

Also, when I think I had the foundation of faith to back me up, I feel lost even more for I ask why God made me who I am. Even music which used to be my outlet through singing and guitar has left me due to physical ailments. It's frustrating!

My only solace is writing. I only wish to reach out to others here maybe making a difference in one or two or hundreds of lives knowing we have something in common and want to help each other....

If anything, this place here in DS is one of the reasons I'm still here. I hope that you find good friends here but also outside of here to support you through life. :)

Big hugs :)

Thanks to eveyone for all of your support. The thoughts just come on so strong and I feel that I have to stop what I am doing and ask myself what is really going on. After all of the attempts that I have made, it makes my stomach upset when I take medication because I feel that I have done damage, is that possible. Well I am just trying to take it one day at a time. Thanks again.