Clinical depression is a state of sadness or melancholia that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living....
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I have had severe chronic depression for about 2 years now... usually when things get bad I can cope or distract myself... with training or movies or talking... or several other techniques... tonight nothing helps... I am sinking fast... all I feel like is I need to run away from the world, hide... but there is nowhere to go, nowhere to run... i dont do drugs or drink i never have... its not an option and i am proud of that... but right now I don't know what to do... I feel smothered by everything... i want to fly through the door get in my car and drive till I fall asleep or find some escape from the world around me right now... help me... i cant take it.
Posted on 08/09/07, 12:08 am |
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I will tell you one thing right now, I know what you are going through and I am here for you! It is hard dealing with depression. I have had it for almost 10 years now. I am either very happy or very sad(manic depressive-bipolar) It has taken a toll on my family but they have always been there for me. Have you tried writing down your feelings or going to therapy? I am on depression meds right now and it is helping me. Are you suicidle? Take a breath and think. If you would leave this world, how would others feel? I know you might not care what they think. What I tried killing myself, I was just thinking of myself, but when I went to therapy and started talkingto my parents, it was alot easier knowing I wasn't going through it a lone. My family was there for me. 
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Is it possible you're having an anxiety attack?
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I was suicidal at one point a long time ago and even though I have reached a similar low I am also Thantaphobic... so suicide isnt really TOO much of a concern...my family isn't around... I live with roommates hundreds of miles from any family... I called to try to get an appointment for therapy but they said they would get back to me in 3 days...its been six... I am also dealing with a new diagnosis of BPD (borderline personality disorder) ... even though I dont have any feeling of suicide I have an abnormal necessity to leave... I almost wish I had someone who cared about me enough that I could just meat them at a secluded beach and just get away... but I dont. All I can do is cry... and hurt... i used to write... its not working tonight... i dont know why.
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not an anxiety attack... well maybe there is one underneath it all to boot... i had one earlier today... i do also have a panic attack disorder
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I've had those feelings before also..just want to get the hell out. I used to just wait it out and it would pass, I'd usually sleep and then be better when I woke up. Otherwise I'd just rationalize myself thru the episode..talk myself out of it. I don't know if this is an option for you but it worked for me..sounds like you aren't on depression medication..that has been my biggest help..or see if there is something benign to do to distract you..read a book , watch a movie, talk to us here..i don't know
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Along with depression I also suffer from BPD, Bipolar rapid cycling, PTSD and anxiety. I got a pretty good handle on my BPD and did some very intensive DBT for it, so anytime you wanna talk BPD just let me know ok.
Can you try using some of your calming skills that you use for your panic attacks? It might help.
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