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The love of my life, a policeman, let's call him Robert. He left this life Feb 20, 1997....his life taken in job-related violence when he was 40 years young.
Haunts my dreams to this day. He keeps coming into my dreams, I know he means well, and I have even explained to him life is diffrent now. I ask him to stay in his grave, but I keep going to his grave....I cry my heart out there. I love him so much and he was robbed of his life. Seems some things hurt forever. I was at a grocery store, shortly after he passed away...everyone around me shopping, I'm shopping. It hit me like a ton of bricks: Something is wrong with this life! Look at these people shopping when my man & his partner were gunned down, lost their lives to protect the community. Hello? Anybody hear my thoughts? Nope! They kept shopping, I kept shopping. Blackout. The friggin police picking me up from the floor....I had collapsed, cried my heart out on the floor. An ambulance there to take me to the hospital. I tried to gather some calm, explain my pain. The cops understood, they knew what happened...they were wearing black bands on their badges in honor of the policemen lost to protect the community. They allowed me to walk away, little dignity I had left at this point. I went to my truck, and NEVER returned to that store again. Robert keeps coming to me in my dreams....forever in my heart. Anyone else gone through this? I'm forever changed from losing the man I loved intensely. Posted on 10/12/08, 11:10 am |
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yoy see nee, im with you!! and i will always, i warn everybody to stay out of her way. because im Nik from the Netherlands, and Nee is my sister. Come on, be with me darling, ill take you home. Nikki 
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I can't imagine your pain. I'm sorry.
My four year old daughter passed away 3 years ago, and she comes to me in dreams, too. HUGS
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Nikki, TeeTee......I know we share forever pain.....I have lost unborn 4 times....I cannot imagine the pain a mother goes through losing a child. Very real fact....losses happen.......AWFUL....the dreams? I'm not alone, not crazy? The dreams are so surreal. Sometimes I wake up, and so disappointed I woke up. I'd rather be with him....if only dreams can last forever.
Nikki, Sweetie! I will get there as soon as I can. I know you understand my heart on this. Love you so much!!!
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I lost my brother when he was 29, we were very close. He comes to me in my dreams and we talk about things. I miss him very much even though it was 16 years ago that he past....You aren't crazy and I know sometimes dreams are so sweet it's awful to wake from them! Hugs to ya!
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Hunnie he comes to you in dreams because you remember him and you love him dearly. Hugs you tightly xoxo
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i really feel for you
i lost my mum many years ago and she still comes to me in dreams huge hugs hunni
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The dreams started with watching him drive past 71st & Michigan Road......Him!!! Driving through an intersection.
Progressed to I'm at the hospital, because he was shot, not answering my cellphone because it blew up on the news channels, and I was overwhelmed (really happened) by the phone calls. In the dream, I picked up a ringing payphone at the hospital, HIM: :Hey, how you doing? (his everyday greeting) I say something like, Baby they said you died.....I'm waiting to hear it's not true. He said: Denise, Nee, I'll never leave you. Never be gone from you. I'm not gone. I remember my oldest sister dragging me from the hospital, my Dad keeping my kids, and going home to flip the hell out. My sis blocking every phone call, newschannels, newspapers....everyone wanting input from a broken me. My sis protected me emotionally. She stayed with me & protected me. She left her own kids with their grandma to do this. The dreams continue to be haunting & painful.
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I can't even rember WHO drove my truck to my house. It was not me.
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omg Nee, I am so sorry :( Just reading this made me tear up, through every word you can feel the pain you are going through. My Mamaw (grandma) tells us all the time that my Papaw comes to her in her dreams. Sometimes it's painful for her, but, like you, she says sometimes she just doesn't want to wake up because it is so wonderful to just be with him again, and she doesn't want it to end.. doesn't want to wake up knowing it was just a dream.
I know we haven't got on well in the past, but I just wanted to respond and let you know I am so sorry you are hurting, I don't care who you are, I hate to see people hurting this way. *hugs*
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yep i hear what you are saying,the love of my life(my kids dad)comes to me here and there in my dreams...........he was killed in a fire 4 years ago..........i still mss him to this day.......i loved him with my whole heart and it hurts to this day if we hadnt divorced he would still be here...........
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