Depression Support Group

I've been on a fast now for the last week; I'm drinking liquids not like the young man who was also on a fast. I've given up hope for my life. I don't see and changings coming and certainly nothing positive. Only one bad thing after another. I've learned to pretty much sleep 18 to 22 hours at day which keeps me from caring about anything. I do stil take care of my animals need. I don't bath/shower unless I have to good outside. I've been thnking about shooting my self in the foot just to experience any feeling but cops have to get involved with all gunshot cases and I don't want my guns taken away.

My wants and needs are simple. Someone to share life with . It does have to be a man, just a close female free that you can call and you can each help with there gardens, etc. I'm to the point and asked my ex to come back..his response, "I still have feelings for you but can't trust the you wouldn't go crazy again"....hmmm, ok...got a point. there....You know I graduated from VA Tech where last year on April 16 the guy killed 33 people with just hand guns. Image what whould have happened it someone that truly undertood the miltary precision of that type. I only bring this up because the guy was denied treatment. Where I am I get to see my therapist every 6 weekes...great way to get caught up. And we all talk outside that we don't tell that the reall truth about how we feel cause the cops will take up the the state mental hospital. So we play the game so we can ge the to see the shrink for for free.

I wish my life were over and I am doing the most i can in the little ways; don't clean cuts (blood poisoning), get in a phsyical fight and get skull fracture,but what's so damn funny is that is that I ALWAYS WEAR MY SEATBELT....once a nurse always a nurse...

Ok sorry to be a downer (again) and hope that everyone else in the family here has great unicorn, blue sprakle dreams..yuck...
Posted on 05/11/08, 01:05 am