Depression Support Group

Sounds like you are battling a couple of very large foes,.. anxiety, panic, fear, and partial hearing loss. Some of these are major disorders and your environment can greatly agitate them. You did not fail the job, .. you were defeated after making great effort. You went up against something that was very powerful, and it won out. You are to be commended for taking on a risky attempt. I would not expect someone to take on a job as a life guard if they cannot swim, .. so you have every right and expectation to know your limitations and avoid situations that aggravate. You did the right thing by seeking and accepting employment, but it was not the right kind of employment for you. You went, you realized, and you resolved. It's ok,.. it was not the right job for you. I hope you are getting treatment for disorder, and working close with your doctor to manage those problems. I know it is a pain, and you should not have to, but you might have to tell people early on that you don't hear on your right side. That is, unfortunately, a price to pay for a disability, .. ya gotta justify it. That way, people won't misunderstand. Yeah, that would mean explaining it over, and over, and over, but better that than an improper assumption which causes you grief. Good luck, .. you did nothing wrong, you can learn from it, and you are not dumb or a failure. Next time, be selective about what kind of situation you can handle, pursue what is appropriate for you, and keep trying for what you want in life. Good luck.