What is Bipolar Disorder

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I feel so angry that people care about me sometime. they have no idea how tired I am.
I'm so tired of pretending to be okay for everyone else for their comfort. I've already learned that if I don't, they leave me.

I've fucked up a relationship that was starting to really touch me in a way that scared me as something so new. It was a kindred spirit that I lost. I feel lost.
Posted on 07/14/08, 06:07 pm
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Reply #1 - 07/14/08  6:55pm
" If they go away then they never were my friend. "
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Reply #2 - 07/14/08  6:57pm
" Are you sure it's over? Maybe this person is just taking a little break?

Suicide is not an option. Don't even go there.

A year ago a guy ended a relationship with me and I chose suicide. Luckily someone found me and I was ok (well, after a few days in ICU and two weeks in the hospital).

After the fact I realized he was so NOT WORTH IT. I almost left my chidlren motherless over him. To make matters worse, he tried to come back to me. NO NO NO. He was so not worth it. My life has much more value than that.

AND SO DOES YOURS!!

Mourn him, yes, if he is truly gone from your life (doubt it - he'll be back) but to give him so much power, to value the relationship more than your life. That's just not ... what's the right word? Reasonable? When you are feeling more logical you'll see see this.

{{{{yumbby}}}}

-Joanne "
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Reply #3 - 07/14/08  8:10pm
" you have to take care of you. you need to find SOMEONE you can be the REAL you with. trust me, it makes all the difference. without the love and support of the few friends i have, i would not be here today. keep reaching out! if he chose to leave,then he is not meant for you! "
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Reply #4 - 07/14/08  8:15pm
" everyone is right. he's not worth it. u are more important. find yourself again, and be u. i know easier said than done, but it will get better. "
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Reply #5 - 07/15/08  3:08am
" I know this disorder can make you think and do some crazy things. I am so depressed right now that I feel like I would like to lay down and die sometimes bc of the person this is making me but you just have to keep your head up and remember that there is always a silver lining in a gray cloud. Suicide should not be something you actually want or try to do, it WILL NOT fix your problem!! Please know that whether we know each other or not this site is full of people for you to vent to and express yourself to. Take advantage of that bc we aren't here to pressure or judge, we just tread common ground. Please feel free to message me if you need to vent!! "
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Reply #6 - 07/21/08  12:26am
" My husband leftt me one year ago. I was also very suicidal for a while.
I feel better now. Do not give up hope. I promise it will get better. "
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Reply #7 - 07/24/08  8:36pm
" suicide is always an option
it's all the other choices that we only have the chance to try now
don't shortchange yourself "
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Reply #8 - 07/24/08  8:53pm
" What works best for me is to be ok (or pretend to be ok) for myself. I don't want pretend friends and the people who stick around are the real deal. I love it when people care about me because I can care right back. It's not unusual to feel lost, confused or down. Those are part of our moods and we can work on them and get help for them.

I guess suicide would be an option, but not a very good option. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem and I stopped entertaining the idea years ago.
Here's a good link: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Nowadays my favorite option is a hot fudge sundae... "
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Reply #9 - 07/24/08  9:16pm
" yeah they only want you around when your upbeat and happy "
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Reply #10 - 07/25/08  5:11am
" i was dumped miserably a few days ago... the reason: "you are moody, you are smart and a jerk at the same time... i can be with a a guy so changing..."
my idea...get in touch with your inner side... depression give us the analytical power... mania give us the taste of life! "
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