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Monday October 6, 2008
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I AM GOING TO END MY LIFE BUT ONLY BECAUSE THERE’S NO OTHER WAY TO DEAL WITH WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH ANYMORE. I KNOW MANY OF YOU THINK THAT YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL. BUT I AM NOT TRYING TO BE MEAN Y...
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I just finished drafting a "thank you" l...
TrishW Oct 04, 2008
Journal Entry for October 4, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I just finished drafting a "thank you" letter to our school dis trict's board of trustees - thanking tem for approving me to serve on the county special ed committe as our city schools' representative. The chairperson of our special ed committee says things have been pretty adversarial in the past w/city and school district administrators and the person who was rep before ... -
Im going now. Hopefuly when im gone there will be ...
emzie Oct 04, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Im going now. Hopefuly when im gone there will be a heaven for me to go to. Im worthless. I am to unhappy to carry on. Ive got the tablets. Bye x x -
I can't believe it, I've had possibly the most dep...
Electroch... Oct 04, 2008
Journal Entry for October 4, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I can't believe it, I've had possibly the most depression free day for over a year. I didn't feel depressed from the moment I woke up till abot 15 minutes ago. My auntie and uncle are round and they are acctually my favourite people in the world, If I could choose anyone to spend more time with it would be them. So we are talking and warning tv and my uncle john says something about the piano, my...
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I feel so sad. I just want to curl up and die. Peo...
emzie Oct 04, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I feel so sad. I just want to curl up and die. People are so cruel and i dont want them to be. I just want to curl up and cry myself to sleep and never wake up again. Theres no point in living my life is hell and i want it gone. I want this pain gone. -
Went to the pdoc yesterday and got even more meds....
AHaone Oct 04, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008 |
Went to the pdoc yesterday and got even more meds. Elavil this time... Ive taken it before.. but only for a short while and it was a long time ago. He is continuing with my Lamictal.. so thats good. My pulse was at 134... and he thinks I may have a heart problem causing somekind of physical panic attack- that may explain a lot.. and would lead me down a more successful road because it would be th...
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I finally got the insurance co. to approve my meds...
LIgirl Oct 04, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008 |
I finally got the insurance co. to approve my meds, and now my daughter is crashing daily again. I've decided to do a total ravamp of my apartment. New paint, new curtains, new area rugs. The hardest part will be getting rid of all of my clutter and what nots.... I've had to abandon a goal that I had for myself to take the National Boards Certification for Teaching. ...1 Recommendation -
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Debracorn Oct 04, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008 |
I feel BEATEN...yet
You have made me more then a conqueror (Romans)
I feel BOUND...yet
You are my deliverer (Romans)
I feel FEARFUL...yet
You did not give me a spirit of fear, but of love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy)
I feel DARKNESS...yet
Your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light for my path (Psalms)
I feel LONELY......2 Recommendations1 Comment -
I just don't know what I'm gonna do right ...
blissfall... Oct 04, 2008
Can't I just die? Or is it gonna get worse?
Saturday, October 4, 2008 |
I just don't know what I'm gonna do right now.
My boyfriend of 6 months called me this afternoon. He got some girl pregnant and he didn't want me to be mad?! I asked him how far along she was... a month.
I hate him. I hate him for making me do this. I hate him because instead of just cutting.. I slit myself and I slit myself bad.
My arms are gashed from my wrists to my elbows. I can see...1 Recommendation -
durbs13 Oct 03, 2008
Journal Entry for October 3, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
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KissesCut Oct 03, 2008
Journal Entry for October 3, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
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It's Friday. I keep fucking shuddering. Does a...
blindvertigo Oct 03, 2008
Journal Entry for October 3, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
It's Friday. I keep fucking shuddering. Does anyone else do that? Just shudder? So I go see my Grandpa for the last time tomorrow :(
Oh my god my head is killing! Meds? hello? where are you?
I'm so shallow. I have such low self esteem. I feel like I have to have new messages or something every time I log in to here or a different site or else I'm not worth anything.
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i hate myself so much. why am i so disgusting? i f...
Electroch... Oct 03, 2008
Journal Entry for October 3, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
i hate myself so much. why am i so disgusting? i feel different today. like someone else. but not someone i want to be.
i keep thinking about what im going to be like when i grow up. i think i want to live by myself for a while. just seperate myself from everyone, i wont have to talk to anyone, and i wont have ot know anyone, i'll just live alone, and be alone, and maybe i could sort myself ou...1 Comment
Journal Entry for October 4, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I just finished drafting a "thank you" letter to our school dis trict's board of trustees - thanking tem for approving me to serve on the county special ed committe as our city schools' representative. The chairperson of our special ed committee says things have been pretty adversarial in the past w/city and school district administrators and the person who was rep before ... -
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heavens not a place you go when you die, its that moment in life when you actually feel alive, so live for the moment and take this advice, live by every word love is just a hoax, so just forget everything you have ever heard, live for the moment now.
you wont cry for my absence i know, you forgot me long ago, am i that unimportant? am i so insignificant? isnt something missing? isnt someone missi...2 Recommendations1 Comment
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im n school i go for 3 hours and im doing my best to do well and it feels like when i put foward some effort it boosts my self of steam alot. if i keep trying and set small goals i know it will deff help the way i feel about myself and help my life and i can keep setting goals and they will get bigger i just need more small sucessess in my life so im going to make them. i basically bef...1 Recommendation3 Comments
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More »POETRY CORNER
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Why is love so hard to bear,When it hurts so much ...
illaya Sep 04, 2008
Thursday, September 4, 2008 |
Why is love so hard to bear,
When it hurts so much that you care,
When they hurt you so bad that you wanna die,
and yet somedays you feel as if you could fly,
Right up to the sky safe in their arms,
How easily you succum to their charms,
Why does something so good have to hurt,
Sometimes it feels like they're only after whats under your skirt.
Why does love have to hurt?
When you're happy everythi...1 Recommendation16 Comments -
It's colder than before, The seasons took all ...
phatpig99 May 08, 2008
Thursday, May 8, 2008 |
It's colder than before,
The seasons took all they had come for.
Now winter dances here.
It seems so fitting don't you think
To dress the ground in white and grey.
It's so quiet I can hear my thoughts touching every second that I spent waiting for you.
Circumstances afford me no second chance to tell you How much I've missed you.
My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes aga...1 Recommendation5 Comments -
Have you ever wanted to dry a tear that you knew y...
darklilles Jun 26, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008 |
Have you ever wanted to dry a tear that you knew you had made fall?
Have you ever said something that you never meant at all?
Have you ever wanted to reach out to someone who was in pain?
Have you ever wanted to give sunshine to someone that lives in rain?
Have you ever wanted a chance to go back and change the past?
Have you ever stoped to realize that time slips by to fast?
Have you...1 Recommendation3 Comments -
Some Poems I worte over the past year....
mcrox2 May 06, 2008
Tuesday, May 6, 2008 |
Some Poems I worte over the past year..... comment and enjoy (maby)
Major
So I’m stuck in the mode
I feel like I’m slipping away.
Everyday when I get home there’s
Always something that makes it worse.
I sit in one spot.
I move when I'm told to.
I cry when I think of everything.
I'm stuck here lying on my floor.
I hope someone helps.
I'm sick of life
I'm stuck he...2 Recommendations2 Comments -
I love you with all my heart;I long for you when w...
Ajay08 Apr 17, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
I love you with all my heart;
I long for you when we're apart;
I wish I could wipe away all your tears;
Look you in your eyes and somehow take away all your fears;
I wish I could also take away your pain;
Love you in such a way that you will know you have everything to gain;
I want to take you in my arms and hold you ever tight;
Show you that you're the one I love with all my might;
I know in my ...2 Recommendations2 Comments -
I need to work on some poetry for a card of ...
Sarahsma Apr 15, 2008
Late Night Raw Emotions...sorting into words.....
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 |
I need to work on some poetry for a card of remembrance I am sending to family with a picture. I hope I like it. I ordered the pics sight unseen. I also have to arrange for a pastor or friend to pray over her anniversary date. I want to free a dove but I haven't much time to work tihis out....heres my ideas....just toying with words
In remembrance of Sarah Christine Popielarz
entrance to ...1 Recommendation3 Comments -
wrote this one when I was 13 I thought it w...
LizzyMell Feb 28, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008 |
wrote this one when I was 13 I thought it was kinda cute lol it was for my first crush his mum owned a ranch and so he was often busy working there. It says in my journal that I wrote it after trying to get him to dance with me by his pond under the stars. Yeah I guess I was a hopeless romantic back then too.
Music fills an empty room
that once sat silent as a tomb
Alone she dances 'cross t...1 Recommendation3 Comments -
I'm feeling verysa-confu-up-I feel like I rela...
portosicuro Sep 01, 2008
Journal Entry for September 1, 2008
Monday, September 1, 2008 |
I'm feeling very
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confu-
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I feel
like I relate to many songs.
I can unstand heart-ache
and impatience.
I understand people
that want to cry all the time.
People that hit their kids
and wish that sorry is enough,
even though they know it's not.
People that force others
To find God
People that do stuipid things
People that kill themselves
People that run away
I feel-
I just feel
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a promise made becomes a promise broken. a pr...
NikkiJade Aug 20, 2008
the thoughts that go through my mind don't make any sense at all..
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 |
a promise made becomes a promise broken.
a promise broken becomes words unspoken.
the words unspoken become searing pain.
that searing pain is washed away by the rain.
the rain is a promise, a promise made.
that right there made perfect sense in my mind.
I thought those exact words..
can you tell I'm a writer?
tell me if this makes sense to anyone else, or if I'm just trippin' out again...1 Recommendation2 Comments -
Crush Crush?...Crush?... Crush.I always wonde...
unsureem0... Aug 20, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 |
Crush
Crush?...Crush?... Crush.
I always wondered wy they called it a crush.
I wonder no longer
It is precisly that
a crush.
You becaome smitten.
You think 'This is the one.'
But is it?
Your thoughts are occupied by this one person.
You think that you are inlove.
But are you?
You are completly engrossed in every action of this person.
You thnk this could be the person you live your life with forever.
B...1 Recommendation2 Comments -
i was struck by a love so sudden and sweetyour fac...
phatpig99 May 13, 2008
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 |
i was struck by a love so sudden and sweet
your face shown like a star and made my stone heart beat
my face turned pale as ever, my legs refused to walk away yet when you look at me what could i possibly say?
my troubles seem to just melt away
then the blood rushed to my face and you took my sight away
words from your eyes did start, they spoke as a chord does from a string
and what a sweet melody...1 Recommendation2 Comments -
harsh words and violent blows, hidden secrets that...
phatpig99 May 13, 2008
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 |
harsh words and violent blows, hidden secrets that nobody knows. eyes are open, hands are fisted deep inside im warp and twisted. so many tricks and so many lies, too many whens and too many whys, no one's special, no one's gifted, im just me warped and twisted. sleeping awake and choking on a dream, listening loudyly to a silent scream call my mind the number's unlisted lost in ...1 Recommendation2 Comments
Thursday, September 4, 2008 |
Why is love so hard to bear,
When it hurts so much that you care,
When they hurt you so bad that you wanna die,
and yet somedays you feel as if you could fly,
Right up to the sky safe in their arms,
How easily you succum to their charms,
Why does something so good have to hurt,
Sometimes it feels like they're only after whats under your skirt.
Why does love have to hurt?
When you're happy everythi...1 Recommendation16 Comments -
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