Bipolar manic depressive was my diagnosis in December 1978 and in January 1079 I was started on
Lithium Carbonate. Nobody knew that I was actually a birth defect case of Asperger's Syndrome, all my life. When I was 19 in March 1970, I had an accident that caused me to be hospitalized until October 1970. My accident was a studio accident where I fell asleep too close to one of my large scale outdoor fibreglas sculptures setting off and the catalytic fumes apparently made me comatose. When I was revived I was taken to the big local and legendary psychiatric hospital where I signed myself in and I was not being fully aware of the implications. In May 2006 my diagnosis was changed to Asperger's Syndrome and now they are convinced that the former diagnoses were not fully correct, but only partially correct. Back in March 1970 I was diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. I know that my symptoms in 1970 were not different than at any time prior as far back as I can remember or even to recently even now. Also I think the bipolar syndrome wore off through my aging. I have had no mood shifting episodes as extreme as what I had in the 1970s. I am sure that their diagnoses were all correct as far as understanding the symptoms. I have always been open and honest with my psychiatrists. They all knew about my February 1968 LSD experience. They had all heard my testimony that prior to taking the LSD that I was not verbal and had a serious defect with speech and conversation prior to February 1968. Right after that trip I was able to carry conversation, and even recite a complete joke from memory. The LSD experience while I was on it was not so severe although I had taken a very large dosage and five people had all taken the same amount. The other 4 persons were older and more mature than I was and looking back and
remembering them all, I am seriously analyzing that they were all NT or neurologically normal typology. They knew I was "special" or somewhat crazy or nerdy or profoundly quiet. All five of us were serious
art students,
art majors at
school. We were serious about doing that trip for discovering what was in our unconscious and we all had read Doors of Perception by Aldous Huxley. The other 4 persons all had very intense LSD hallucinations and trip. My experience was not as intense and rather, had me remember that I was like this whenever I was too hungry and nervous as a kid. Or I experienced the same LSD symptoms whenever I was going through hardships as a child and hadn't had enough
sleep or insomnia for several days. I remember that after-word I could talk boldly as never before plus organize what I am about to say. Also the eye contact with others was different. Before, I would lose my train of thought and stammer when I had eye contact. Sincerely I now know that I am Asperger's Syndrome since birth. These symptoms have always been with me. My psychiatrists and psychologists have heard my story about the LSD.
