Alcoholism Support Group

Today is my 5th day of being sober again. I recently completed 3 months of soberity and can honestly say it was 3 of the happiest months of my life. I felt free and normal i felt like i was finding out who i was, and i liked that person. Others seemed to like me as well which was novel because if i ever normally let anyone get close to me they soon found out that i was a pathetic selfish drunk.

So why the hell did i pick up again ? To any normal person it sounds like insanity, and i suppose it is. I found myself exactly where i was, in fact it was worse. 5 weeks of hell followed always drunk my mind cloudy angry depresssed full of self pity.

I turned 30 yesterday and i had promised myself i would be sober by the time i was 30. I was and it was not easy i dragged myself the the doctor and the alcohol nurse who orginally detoxed me and with there help i managed to reduce my intake and finally 5 days ago stop. I went through 2 days of shit but because i done it before i knew i had to perserve because i desperatly wanted to be back where i was.

Today i feel good the shakes have stopped and my appetite is slowly returning. I just want get through today and will deal with tomorrow when it arrives.

If anyone out there is considering picking up again please dont, it is scary how quickly your back in the place you worked so hard to escape.
Posted on 11/17/08, 06:11 am