Alcoholism Support Group

Hi there,
I can relate and I think many can.

As far as antabuse goes, any calculating alcoholic that wants to drink, can calculate when to go off of antabuse so they can drink again. I know an individual that did that with regularity.

With experimentation, hopefully you'll get to the point where YOU think the pain isn't worth the reward that your brain thinks you're getting and you'll get whatever help you need to consider the pain weighs heavier than the perceived relief.

Diane is right about the anti-buse thing. Drinking on it can be somewhat dangerous also if you get your timing off. I did it and I couldn't believe how hard my heart could beat. Thought it was coming right out of my chest and was going to bounce across the floor like a ball.

Hello happy you are here.

An alcoholic is not necessarily someone who drinks everyday, but someone when they start can not always stop.

When I started drinking I developed a physical craving where one drink was to many and one hundred not enough. And then I developed this mental compulsion where all I could think about was where am I going to get that next drink. And at times I had this ungrounded fear if I run out of alcohol I would die.

And as alcoholism is a progressive disease it never gets better if you are alcoholic it's only going to get worse.

I can remember those three days after a session. The first day I was like death warmed up and I would be saying the alcoholics prayer God never again. the second day feeling a little better the third day I had forgot what the first day was like and then back into it again.

That's the insanity of this disease for me knowing what is going to happen after I pick up a drink and still picking it up.

Some say the insanity of this disease is. “doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.” I say it's “Doing the same thing over and over again knowing exactly what the result is going to be. And still doing it.

There is a lot of help if you want it. Alcoholics Anonymous was what help me. Though not everyone goes to AA. I had seen Doctors, Psychologists, Counselors,Psychiatrists over the years who wanted to treat an addict with more drugs. If you haven't tried AA I would suggest to have a look it may help.

Keep posting I hope you find the help you need you can message me anytime .
God Bless...

Lionel

Wow!! Lionel's answer to you really resonated with me! He articulated the complete, utter, total insanity of alcoholism better than I ever have when he said, "It's “Doing the same thing over and over again knowing exactly what the result is going to be. And still doing it."

I was trying to explain that to a friend (who is not an alcoholic) the other day -- that KNOWING I was in for an absolutely skull-crushing hangover was never going to stop me from drinking. I considered that to be just the price of doing business. (Seriously!!) That does not make ANY SENSE to people who are NOT alcoholics. Why? Because it's COMPLETELY INSANE!!

From reading your post it sounds like you still have plenty to lose -- your husband, custody of your baby, etc. etc., So I too, am happy you are reaching out for help before you lose those things. There is, indeed, plenty of help out there if you want it. xoxo.

I know alcoholics who only drank on major holidays 3 or 4 times a year. But when they did, they woke up in big trouble, jail or the hospital.

It is not how often that you drink that makes you alcoholic but rather the consequences of those occasions.

So anyway, then I made a list of all persons I had harmed and humbly asked Him to remove them.

Then I sought through prayer and medication to improve my self-consciousness..

Then I joined a mutual admiration society.

I quit drinking Jan 08, didn't start to call myself alcoholic until April. It took me that long to realize that if I could not control my drinking that was enough to be alcoholic. Only you can make that determination for yourself, but I'd suggest that if you need antabuse that you can't control your drinking either and should avoid it. God Bless and Good luck...

You may want to go find an AA meeting in you're area. Antabuse is a dangerous way to go, I didn't work for me, cause I am the real alcoholic the book talks about, so I have to do the steps and change a few things so I can stay sober. Hell when I took antabuse I drank on it, got really sick but then after a couple of hours I was fine and drinking like a fish again. Just work on you're issues and if you're family is worth it too you, hit some meetings.

Calling yourself an alcoholic is tough. Saying it in front of people at an AA meeting is even tougher. However, those two decisions are some of the best I've ever made. My life has improved dramatically. Your family deserves to have a dad who is there for them. If you take it seriously AA can help you fast.

Get the antabuse and go to some AA meetings. You'll find other binge drinkers just like you.
I started out as a binge drinker, befor I knew it I was a daily drinker. Always trying to kill the hangover. I'm glad you are getting counseling.

God bless and good luck.