I never thought that I had a drinking problem until recently. I use to only drink with my friends in college. Then after college I fell into a deep depression. I didn't see it coming. It started gradually. Then when I broke with my ex I hit rock bottom. During our rocky relationship I would drink to forget our fights or the thought that I knew that he was going to
leave me eventually. Then we broke up and I hit rock bottom! That night I don't remember anything. I did and said some stuff that I regret so much! I went back to church and started
dating again. I found a great guy. Then we went away for the weekend and I drank too much and disrespected his family (according to him), then a few weeks later I drank too much and blew up at him and got a little physical. Then a couple months later we went to a wedding and drank too much and I was going to go get his son when i was drunk! I crossed the line so much then! I couldn't believe I did that. He says he doesn't like the person I become when I drink. I don't like the person I become when I drink. I am so hurt from my last relationship and just so sad that i was dealing with it by drinking. Now it is going to cost me my current relationship and he is so great. I don't know what to do. I have been sober for 2 weeks. Haven't even had a sip. I have wanted to but I haven't! But now it is repairing that trust and seeing if our relationship can survive that. I just don't know if we should break up. I just don't know what to do.
Posted on 10/11/08, 12:10 am
Steph...putting your sobriety first right now is the most unselfish thing that you can do. Like Stephenlee suggested...don't take the first drink no matter what...it starts there. You'll need a clear head to do the rest. 
