ADHD / ADD Support Group

My name is Christine. I am a mother of 3 and a Navy wife. My husband is gone alot, and my family just moved to Washington. I have a 3 year old that is having alot of problems but has always had them even when he was born. I kid you not when I say that he walked out of my belly angry! He started crying and has yet to stop. He is constantly screaming, or having outbursts. He gets horribly violent with me, my other kids and the dogs. He can't seem to focus long enough to even color a picture. Then he canges, he is sweet, kind, compashionate, and loving. I feel like its dr. jekel and mr. hyde. We have been going to doctors since he was 2 and they just told us to wait it out. Over the past 3 months it has gotten severe. We took him to the doctors 2 weeks ago and he said that we needed to immediantly get him into a speciaist. He even got a social worker going that day since my 3 year old is getting violent. Well I just found out that the specialist can't see us until September. My son's "rages" are 10x's worse when my husband is on deployment and today I caught him trying to strangle his 1 year old brother. he said that it was because the 1 year old took his car. I have already had 3 episodes this month where I break down and can't stop crying. I feel like a horrible mother and to make it worse I don't know what else to do. He doesn't go to day care, we can't afford that and I am at a loss. I have tried everything I can think of and everything that people have sugessted to me. I don't know what else to do. I need more help than I am getting. I don't want him to fall between the cracks, but I know that this can't continue. What did I do wrong?
Posted on 06/27/08, 11:06 pm